#pondering

Sure, one might argue that it is not a very advanced knowledge, and that the mosquito merely follows its instinctive programming to find the ideal places to bite me.

And that is true; I am not claiming that the mosquito is capable of perceiving my internal structure while comprehending that its food source is a sentient organism with thoughts and feelings (though there is no real way of knowing for certain...).

It may not know me, but it knows how to bite along my veins and arteries, drawing its own little dotted [ITCHY] map across my flesh in the same way humans leave litter along their highways.

It knows where I taste best, how to get right to the good stuff. It doesn't need me to do a darn thing, it just helps itself and moves on. It is somewhat pleasant to realize that, if I fail at all else, I have at least been of service, of use, of value, to a small handful of living beings.

Timeline-wise, I’m going to set it being recorded around 2003, and he sent it to Ada, Alyssa, and HUNK. Those are the three people that knew him the most, as he truly was. He didn’t expect them to care, per se, but since I hc that that’s around the time he realised his health was worsening and he had no solution to it, he became fearful of losing himself and his sense of self.

I have talked about Wesker having no compassion for himself and treating his feelings as secondary, unimportant things. Gregor, in Metamorphosis, who Alex compares him to, sees no point in his existence if he is disabled, unable to provide/work, and is completely consumed by the idea of his usefulness and how to maintain it.

And once he accepts that he cannot work and can no longer have merit as an earner, there is nothing for him to do but to wait for his own death, which he believes will be a relief to everyone around him.

I think I'm gonna make it include multiple fandoms but idk

there's a few popee the performer ask blogs but they're all inactive, so that's a possibility

there's also baldis basics, which already has a bunch of ask blogs, so idk

I could also do ace attorney????? maybe????????? possibly????????????????

I would do fnaf but I don't know the lore very well at all