Alone

Another bad day. More pain more suffering. I cannot groove this is life!

I went to the park tonight trying to end it but I’m chickenshit and couldn’t do it. I’ll try again tomorrow. I just want to die.

I feel better today. I even smiled once. But I still feel discusted of myself from the inside. I'm ugly and broken but today I managed to hide that side of me.

I spend my days googleing ways to kill myself while others die even though they wanted to live. I want to die but I live. How is this fair???

Everyone celebrates Valentine's Day today, gets breakfast in bed and feels loved. While I'm crying after my partner walked out on me. My day of love is pain and heartbreak. I just want to end it. There's nothing for me in this world anymore. No one wants me around, no one loves and I don't have the strength to live anymore.

In memory of true myself, because some people are too large to be contained by just one universe.