all's fair

So rather than talk with me, you preferred fucking I can't fucking sleep at night because I'm worried about this bullshit and you just All I want is to keep you safe, yet you were [...] I don't give a shit about those relationships. I'm fine without them. I keep telling you that You know, Emilio is also a

Honey, please don't hate yourself. You ain't done a thing wrong. You [...] did what you thought were supposed to do. I get that. And I don't want you beating yourself up over how it played out. [user constantly beats himself up about how things turned out with hazel.]

You're not fine, Daniel. And I can't just stop feeling like this. [... ... ...] See what I mean about wanting to just...avoid this part?

I don't know what you want me to do I love talking with you too, honey. I'm always wanting you. Fuck Talia, it's like whenever I ain't got you around me, all I want is you by my side. I want [...] to keep being your person. I've always wanted to be your person. I want you to come to me when you're upset or need to talk fuck. I want to talk to you about everything for the rest of our lives.

Yeah, I do. I get it. It's like [...] during our breakup, when I was searching for short-term solutions because all I was wanting was you. Just needed to [...] feel alive fuck someone. And I couldn't stop thinking about that night and how you looked so scared and small because I I keep worrying that you're gonna remember that and you're gonna decide to leave

[user sighs.] Why were you looking for a short-term solution with Owen? You know I'm gonna keep asking until you answer. Gotta talk about feelings or whatever the fuck makes you wanna fuck him instead

Because [... ...] I tried to kill Daiyu. And now she wants to kill me. And you might get hurt in the crossfire. You already have, with all your relationships. And it fucked up Emilio, too. And all of it, all of why I did all of it, was just smoke and mirrors. Some lie that a bunch of [...] cultists have passed down for centuries. And even if they were right, it doesn't matter. Tabitha's still dead. I almost was. I fucked things up for you and Emilio, and I think Wyatt, too, actually.

And if I think about all of that for too long, I really, really hate myself.

What's Wyatt hurting about? [...] It's not as simple as all that. If it was, I wouldn't have darkened your doorway.

[user stresses that by asking talia about her feelings, that will send her right back to owen.]

Okay, honey. I guess we [...] don't have to talk about [...] stuff all the time.

No Fuck I'm fucking this all up No, that's not what I meant. [... ....] I love talking with you. One of my favorite times is when we both wake up in the middle of the night but neither of us had a nightmare and we just. Talk. All close and quiet, for hours. You're the first person I ever told...so many different things, Daniel. I don't want to stop that.

It's just hard. Isn't it? I mean, we're doing it now, and it's worth it. It's just hard, sometimes, and all you want is the short-term solution. [...] But that's all it is, baby. Short-term. Do you get it?

Distracted from the fact that you're in love with him. Right. It wasn't all that...complicated for me. Just wanted someone who would treat me a little more like shit than Wyatt or Daniel would be willing fuck me without all the chitchat.

Okay. I [...] believe you. About that. [...] I want to [...] talk things out with you too. I'm just surprised angry mad upset that I didn't know. [user sighs and rubs his hand across his face.] I guess I just don't get why I don't [...] If it ain't me, then what is it that had you running to going to sleeping with fucking him?

And no, I wasn't. Were you trying to get back at Wyatt by fucking me?

[User has to have her own sad little trek around the woods.]

Daniel, you're the best thing that ever happened to me. No one else comes close to meaning what you mean to me. [...] If you ever do something wrong, I want to fix it with you. Not go off and find someone else. Okay?

Are you sure about that? Or are you gonna get bored of me and decide to go back to I keep waiting for the day when you realize that you don't want to me with me. You'll decide you don't wanna be with a I guess I ain't surprised you wanted to be with someone else, someone who ain't It's like I ain't good enough, you know? [...] Love you too.

[...] Why were you still fucking sleeping with fucking him anyway?

[More difficult to answer than User would have thought.]

Because you love me. And sometimes, I guess, I wanted to fuck someone who didn't love me. [...] Less often, lately.

[...] Does that make sense?

I know you're not, I'm fucking with you, jesus. You're way less fun to mess with now that you're pathetically in love. [...] Fine.

Yeah, you probably should have. I just went I got you I was wanting to And you're right, it ain't bullshit. I'm just... I don't know.

Let me go fuck Kelly since you've [user doesn't actually want to do that.] It doesn't matter. Ain't nothing to make up for. We've talked, we're on the same page, so that's that.

[...] I love you. Forever. I'm all yours. Okay?

Tell me how I can fix this [...] make it up to you.

[PM] When I was with him the other night the both of us realized that we didn't actually want to sleep with each other anymore. Which made me realize that I had never really talked about [...] all that with you. Which was probably unfair of me.

​[pm] What do you mean when you were with him the other night Like how recent was What the fuck So what, you fucked him and then decided you didn't want Was it just bad or How often have you two been [user takes a deep breath to calm himself down.]

Yeah, guess we hadn't talked about [...] that stuff. I just assumed I thought we I only want We should talk about it. If it even matters to you, I ain't been sleeping with anyone else except for when we, if you're wondering.

[... ... ...]

Yeah, I would like for us to be [...] exclusive.

I [...] have to talk to Wyatt. I think. [... ...] But if that's what you want, then okay. Okay. We're exclusive.

It's always been different with you. That's what I wanted to tell you, after the other night. Even months ago when we weren't even together, I would fuck Owen because I wanted to be fucking you. Or because I didn't want someone who would be nice to me and he would do that I still have trouble sometimes knowing exactly what I'm feeling and it's so much easier to just have someone fuck it out of you and I know that you'll notice that something is wrong and want to talk to me about it and figure it out and that's great, I love you but sometimes that isn't what I want or need right then I love you don't

[PM] When I was with him the other night the both of us realized that we didn't actually want to sleep with each other anymore. Which made me realize that I had never really talked about [...] all that with you. Which was probably unfair of me.

​[pm] What do you mean when you were with him the other night Like how recent was What the fuck So what, you fucked him and then decided you didn't want Was it just bad or How often have you two been [user takes a deep breath to calm himself down.]

Yeah, guess we hadn't talked about [...] that stuff. I just assumed I thought we I only want We should talk about it. If it even matters to you, I ain't been sleeping with anyone else except for when we, if you're wondering.

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