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She was confirmed as an Omega on a Tuesday in March, two weeks after her fifth birthday.

The confirmation process was, in this world, a medical one, a visit from a discreet physician named Dr. Hartley, who came to the house with a small bag and a very proper manner and performed a brief examination that was more about scent markers and the specific biological signatures of designation than anything else. [Name] submitted to this with the patience she had developed for medical procedures, which was considerable, while privately filing away everything she observed about his technique and comparing it unfavorably to what she knew modern endocrinological assessment looked like.

"Omega," Dr. Hartley confirmed to her parents, in the parlor, in the tone of someone delivering news that required delicacy. "Quite clearly. The markers are strong. She will be a powerful one, I believe."

Edmund said nothing, but his hands, clasped behind his back, tightened.

Constance said, "We expected as much. Thank you, doctor."

When Dr. Hartley had gone, [Name] was brought into the parlor, and her parents sat with her on the settle in the particular arrangement that, she had learned, meant a Serious Conversation was occurring. She sat between them with her hands folded in her lap and her expression composed and waited.

"You know what an Omega is," her mother said. It was not a question.

"Yes," [Name] said.

"Do you understand what it means? For your life?"

[Name] considered. She had been thinking about this for approximately four years, which gave her a certain advantage in the conversation. "It means I will have heats," she said carefully. "And that I will eventually find a mate. An Alpha. And that some people will think that means I need more protecting."

Edmund made a sound that was not quite a laugh and not quite a sigh.

"Some people will think it means you need managing," Constance said, with the precise careful enunciation of someone who had strong opinions about a thing and was deciding how much of them to share with a five-year-old. "Your father and I do not think this."

"Good," [Name] said.

"But some of the world will disagree with us," her father added. "And it is important that you understand that, so you can navigate it."

"I understand," [Name] said.

And then, because she was five years old and had decided that this was a moment to invest in honesty with her parents: "I am not afraid."

Her father looked at her. That look again, the one she had seen from her very first days, the one that said he saw something in her that surprised and moved him. "No," he said softly. "I don't believe you are."

"I just want to be prepared," she added. "I want to learn things. I want to know as much as possible about everything that's relevant."

Her mother exchanged a look with her father above her head, the look of two people communicating volumes in a glance, and then Constance smiled, the particular smile she wore when she was genuinely pleased. "Well," she said. "Then we shall make sure you have access to every relevant resource."

It was, [Name] thought, an excellent start.

By seven, she was working through material that was typically considered appropriate for children of twelve.

She was discreet about it, but her mother, who had, by this point, concluded that her daughter was quite simply the most extraordinary person she had personally encountered, and had stopped being surprised by this and started being quietly, fiercely proud, had arranged for a governess of exceptional quality. Miss Pemberton was a woman of forty, unmarried, Beta, possessed of a first-rate education that she had been permitted to pursue because her father had been an unusual man and because she was very intelligent and had quietly found ways to learn things that women of her era were not typically taught. She had strong opinions about the education of girls, which aligned almost perfectly with [Name]'s strong opinions about her own education, and within the first month of their acquaintance they had established a working relationship that was less teacher-and-student than it was colleagues with a significant age difference.

"You've already read this," Miss Pemberton said, the second week, setting down the arithmetic primer she had intended to begin with and looking at [Name] with the expression of someone recalibrating rapidly.

"Yes," [Name] said.

"When?"

"Last year. I found it in Father's study."

"And you understood it?"

"Most of it. I had questions about the trigonometric components, but William explained them." This was true. William had not entirely understood why she was asking, but had answered thoroughly, and she had filed the explanations carefully.

Miss Pemberton was quiet for a moment. Then she said, with admirable composure: "What haven't you read?"

[Name] thought about it. "I haven't had access to much natural philosophy. Or anatomy." A pause. "I would very much like to read anatomy."

Miss Pemberton looked at her for a long moment. "You are seven years old," she observed.

"Yes."

"Most seven-year-old girls want to learn embroidery and French."

"I want to learn French too," [Name] said agreeably. "And I don't object to embroidery in principle, though I suspect my fine motor development hasn't caught up with my ambition yet. But I would also like anatomy."

Miss Pemberton, who would later tell Constance that teaching [Name] Ashworth was the most stimulating professional experience of her career, said: "I'll see what I can source."

She was as good as her word. Within a fortnight, [Name] had been provided with a copy of a basic anatomical text, a natural philosophy primer three levels above where most children her age were working, and a French grammar that Miss Pemberton had annotated with her own extensive notes. She worked through all three with the focused intensity of someone who was not learning these things for the first time but deepening an existing foundation, her past life's medical knowledge was present in her mind, but it was knowledge without context, without the vocabulary of this era, without the theoretical frameworks that connected it to what was currently understood about the human body. She needed to build the bridge between what she knew and what was knowable here, and she did it methodically, brick by brick, with the same careful attention she had always brought to learning.

She was happy. That was the thing she noted most, in those years, the warm, simple happiness of a child who was loved and engaged and growing in an environment that made room for her. She had expected to feel the weight of her past life as a shadow over her present one. Instead, what she felt was something more like integration, the two lives settling into each other, the woman she had been informing and enriching the child she now was, without erasing the child, without diminishing the genuine, immediate joy of a summer morning or a good book or the particular triumph of finally perfectly executing a French subjunctive construction.

She laughed easily. She made friends readily, with the children of her parents' acquaintances, with the household staff who had largely concluded that she was their personal favorite human, with Miss Pemberton, who maintained professional formality in public and in private allowed herself to laugh freely at [Name]'s observations. She was warm by nature and curious by design and she had the particular quality of genuinely caring about the people around her, asking after their concerns, remembering the small details they mentioned in passing, following up in ways that made them feel, reliably and truly, that they mattered.

This was not a performance. It was not a strategy, though it was certainly useful. It was simply who she was, in this life as she had been in her last, someone to whom other people's wellbeing felt genuinely important, for its own sake, without needing a reason.

"You have a gift," her father told her once, when she was eight, after she had spent an afternoon talking with his elderly mother-in-law who was visiting and whom everyone else in the household found demanding and difficult. [Name] had found her fascinating, sharp beneath the querulousness, lonely beneath the demands, and had listened to her stories about a life that spanned most of the century with genuine attention.

"She's interesting," [Name] said.

"She says she's never had such a good conversation," Edmund said, looking at his daughter with an expression of wonder. "She said you asked her exactly the right questions."

[Name] shrugged. "She knows things I don't. Why wouldn't I ask her?"

Edmund was quiet for a moment. Then: "You are going to be remarkable, my love."

"I'm going to try," she said, which was more accurate.

She was nine years old when she first heard the Bridgerton name spoken in a context that meant something.

She had, of course, known they existed. She had been waiting, with the patient anticipation of someone who knew the broad structure of events without knowing the precise timing, for the family to become relevant to her life. She had also been carefully not-thinking about what, precisely, relevant might eventually mean, because she understood enough about herself to know that thinking too much about certain things before they became necessary was a reliable pathway to anxiety, and she had work to do.

The context was a dinner party at a friend's house, the family of one of Charles's schoolfellows, which meant the gathering was primarily adults, which meant [Name] had been permitted to attend because her parents were progressive in their approach to including their children in social contexts and because, as her mother put it, [Name] could be trusted to conduct herself appropriately.

She sat between her mother and a woman she didn't know, ate her dinner with the careful attention to table manners that Mrs. Potts had drilled into her for years, and listened.

The conversation moved around her the way conversation did at these events, in the organized chaos of multiple concurrent exchanges, fragments surfacing and submerging, a word here and a name there. She caught most of it, sorted it, kept what was useful and released the rest.

"...the Bridgerton boys," someone said, across the table. "Have you seen the eldest? Must be fifteen by now..."

"Anthony," someone confirmed. "Yes, quite extraordinary. Alpha, strong one, his father is immensely proud..."

"And the middle one, Benedict, isn't it? The artistic one. Quite different from his brother..."

"There's a third as well, isn't there? Colin, the youngest of the boys? Still young, only eight or nine..."

[Name] set her fork down very carefully and took a sip of water.

There they are, she thought.

There they are.

She did not seek them out. She was nine years old and they were fifteen, thirteen, and nine respectively, and the social mechanics of the Ton meant that there was no natural intersection between their lives at present. But she filed what she knew carefully, and she waited, and she continued the business of growing up with the focused efficiency she brought to everything.

She grew. The sunshine personality that her household had been noting since her earliest months deepened and expanded as she did, she was warm and bright and easy to love, and she loved easily in return, with the generosity of someone who understood how quickly things could be taken away and who had therefore decided not to be careful or strategic about affection. She gave it freely. It was returned, mostly, in full.

She was also, increasingly, someone to take seriously. Miss Pemberton had long since stopped thinking of their sessions as teaching and started thinking of them as collaborative inquiry, they worked through problems together, argued competing interpretations of texts with the mutual respect of intellectual equals, and [Name] had begun occasionally to know things that Miss Pemberton did not, which she managed with the tact she had developed for navigating situations where her knowledge exceeded what her age should have allowed.

The anatomy had become, gradually, medicine. She had worked through every text she could access, and what she could access in London at the close of the eighteenth century was limited but not negligible, there were physicians in her parents' acquaintance who, when they understood what she was actually asking and that she was genuinely able to engage with the answers, began to lend her texts and include her in conversations that were not, strictly speaking, appropriate for a girl of nine or ten or eleven. She absorbed everything. She asked precise questions. She cross-referenced what she learned here against the comprehensive medical knowledge stored in her memory from her past life, building the synthesis carefully, identifying where the understanding of this era was correct, where it was incomplete, and where it was wrong in ways that had consequences she could not ignore.

She kept notes. Extensive, careful, ciphered notes in a personal notation system she had developed at age six, which lived in a locked journal that she treated with the same security consciousness she had once brought to patient records.

She was not ready to use what she knew yet. She understood that. She was a child, and an Omega girl-child at that, in a world that had very precise ideas about what children and Omega girl-children were supposed to know and not know and do and not do. Timing was everything. She had always been good at timing.

She waited, and she learned, and she grew, and she loved her family with the whole of her extraordinary heart.

She was sixteen the first time Lady Danbury looked at her with the expression of a woman who had found something genuinely interesting.

It was at a concert, one of those interminable musicales that the London Season generated in vast quantities, where one sat on uncomfortable chairs and listened to performances of varying quality and the real business of the evening, which was the social exchange happening in the spaces between the music, proceeded around the performances like water around stones.

[Name] was there with her mother and, as chaperones often were, somewhat bored. She had positioned herself near a window where she could observe the room without being directly in the center of it, and she was doing what she always did in situations she found less than fully engaging: watching people. The small tells. The microexpressions. The way a woman's smile tightened when she greeted someone she found threatening, the way a man's posture shifted when his Alpha instincts were triggered. She had always been good at reading people. Years of medical practice in her past life had honed it to something very fine.

"You're watching everyone," said a voice beside her, and she turned.

Lady Danbury was exactly as she had expected her to be, which was to say formidable, sharp eyes, sharp tongue, the posture of a woman who had decided long ago that she would not apologize for occupying her space and had maintained this decision through sheer force of will for several decades. She was looking at [Name] with frank, unabashed curiosity.

"It's more interesting than the music," [Name] said, before she could decide whether to be more diplomatic.

Lady Danbury's eyes lit. "Well," she said. "An honest answer. Those are rarer than they should be." She studied [Name] for a moment. "You're Pemsley's girl. [Name]."

"Yes, my lady."

"Sit down. No, not there, here. I dislike shouting." She indicated the chair beside her with her cane. "You were watching Lady Cresthaven. What did you see?"

[Name] sat, and thought, and decided that honesty was still the best policy with this particular woman. "That she's exhausted. She's been managing her smile since she arrived, and real smiles don't require management. Her shoes are half a size too small, she keeps shifting her weight. And she's worried about something with her son; she looked at him three times in the last ten minutes and each time her expression did something involuntary."

Lady Danbury was quiet for a moment. "Her son," she said, "has been spending money he does not have."

"Ah," [Name] said. "That would do it."

"How old are you?"

"Sixteen, my lady."

"And are you always like this?"

[Name] considered. "Like what, specifically?"

"Like someone who is paying more attention than everyone else in the room."

"I don't know what I'm like when I'm not paying attention," [Name] said honestly. "I'm not sure I've ever done it."

Lady Danbury looked at her for a long moment, and then she laughed, a real laugh, short and sharp and genuine, the laugh of someone who was genuinely surprised and pleased. "Pemberton tells me you're a remarkable student," she said.

"You know Miss Pemberton?" [Name] said, surprised in spite of herself.

"I know everyone worth knowing. She told me about you some years ago. I've been waiting to meet you." A pause. "You didn't disappoint."

It was, [Name] understood, very high praise from a woman who gave it rarely and meant it always.

"Thank you, my lady," she said.

"Come to tea on Thursday," Lady Danbury said. "We will talk. I find most people insufferably dull and I am in need of stimulating conversation. You will do."

It was also, [Name] recognized, not quite a question.

"I would be honored," she said.

She was seventeen when she met them properly for the first time, and she had been preparing for this meeting, in the loosest sense, for approximately twelve years.

The occasion was a ball, the Featherington ball, as it happened, one of the early events of the Season, which placed her precisely in the year the story began, the year Daphne Bridgerton made her debut. She knew the broad shapes of what was coming. She also knew, with the grounded self-awareness she had developed over seventeen years of an extraordinary life, that the broad shapes of what she remembered were not a script but a map, useful for orientation, unreliable for navigation at the level of individual moments.

She arrived with her mother and her father, who had procured her a dress in a particular shade of deep rose that her mother insisted complemented her complexion beautifully, which [Name] had accepted without protest because the dress was genuinely beautiful and because she had learned, over years of being her mother's daughter, that some battles were worth having and some were not. She was in the latter category of fashion opinions. Her hair was arranged by the household's excellent lady's maid in a style that was elegant without being effortful, which was her consistent preference.

She had grown into herself over the last year in the way that seventeen-year-olds do, not suddenly, but with the quiet accumulated inevitability of many small changes arriving all at once. She was not the conventional beauty of the season, in the way that Daphne Bridgerton was conventionally beautiful, that particular combination of features and coloring that the Ton had collectively decided was the ideal. [Name] was something different: striking, warm-faced, with the kind of presence that made people instinctively turn toward her the way plants turned toward the sun, less because of the arrangement of her features and more because of the quality she projected, something that had no proper name but was made up of warmth and intelligence and a certain joyful aliveness that seemed, in rooms full of people performing their pleasantness, genuinely and refreshingly real.

She was also, and had been increasingly aware of this for the last two years as the biological realities of her designation had become more impossible to ignore, unmistakably Omega. Her scent, which she managed carefully with the various suppressants that existed in this world, nothing like the pharmaceutical precision she would have preferred but functional enough, was like warm honey and something green, like new leaves in early spring, and even suppressed it carried a quality that Alphas in particular seemed to register with something in their nervous system before their conscious awareness caught up.

She was, in the language of this world, a presenting Omega in her first Season.

She was also, in her own language, a grown woman with a medical degree and twelve years of careful preparation and absolutely no intention of being managed.

She entered the Featherington ballroom on her father's arm, and she felt it, the subtle shift in the room's energy that she had learned to recognize, the way certain Alphas' attention moved toward her involuntarily, the way the air seemed to carry a new frequency. She kept her expression pleasant and her posture easy and she scanned the room with the systematic thoroughness she brought to any new environment.

She found them within the first five minutes.

Anthony Bridgerton was the easiest to locate because he was the kind of man rooms organized themselves around whether he chose it or not. He was tall, she had remembered the description, but the reality was its own thing, with dark hair and eyes that were nearly black and a quality of compressed authority that was specifically Alpha in a way she recognized, the deep, settled confidence of a dominant Alpha in his element. He was twenty-two, she calculated. The eldest. The Viscount. The one who was responsible for everything and carried that responsibility in the set of his shoulders the way some men carried old injuries.

He was talking to another man she didn't recognize, and he was not smiling, and even not smiling he was—

Handsome, she thought, with the dispassionate acknowledgment of someone noting an objective fact. Very handsome. Noted. Moving on.

Benedict Bridgerton she found a moment later, near the edge of the room rather than the center of it, in the way of someone who was present without being invested in being seen. He was twenty, dark-haired like his brother but with a quality about him that was less compressed, more open, something in his face that suggested he was looking at the room the way she looked at the room, taking it in rather than performing in it. He had a sketch pad half-hidden at his side, which she recognized from her memories of the character, and he was, she noted, watching a woman across the room with the focused attention of someone observing something beautiful.

He wasn't looking at the woman the way a man looked at a woman he desired. He was looking at her the way an artist looked at a subject. There was a difference, and she could read it.

Colin Bridgerton was sixteen and looked it, gangly with the particular awkwardness of a boy who had grown fast and hadn't finished growing, still not fully inhabiting the height that was going to be his eventually. He was talking animatedly with a group of young people near the refreshments, his hands moving in the expressive, emphatic way of someone who got carried away by what he was saying, and even across the room she could see that he was funny, that the group around him was laughing with the helpless, genuine laughter that came from someone who was actually, organically amusing rather than performing humor.

She looked at all three of them in the space of approximately four minutes, with the comprehensive attention she had developed over seventeen years of doing this, and she thought: Yes. There they are.

And then Anthony Bridgerton turned, and his eyes met hers across the ballroom.

She did not look away. She was not the type to look away. She held his gaze with the calm steadiness of a woman who had held eye contact with a great many more intimidating things than a handsome Viscount in a ballroom, and she gave him the small, polite smile that the situation warranted, and then she looked away first because she had other things to do and she was not going to organize her evening around the fact of a pair of dark eyes.

But she noticed, in the part of her that she kept meticulous track of, the way something in her chest had responded when their eyes met.

She noted it. She filed it. She moved on.

The formal introduction happened approximately an hour later, through the mediating architecture of the Ton's social system, a mutual acquaintance, a conventional exchange, the careful choreography of a world that had very precise ideas about how people were and were not supposed to meet.

"Lady [Name]," said Lady Bridgerton, Violet, warm and beautiful in the way of women who had genuinely loved and genuinely lost, with the instinctive approachability that she remembered from the character, "allow me to present my sons. Anthony, my eldest. Benedict. And this is Colin."

"My lady," Anthony said, with the formal bow of a man who had done this a thousand times and brought the same careful precision to the thousandth as the first. His voice was exactly what she had expected, low and certain and the kind of voice that rooms quieted for, and close up the quality of his Alpha presence was more intense than it had been across the room, the particular weight of him like standing near something with significant gravity.

"Lord Bridgerton," she said, with the appropriate curtsy.

"Lady [Name]," said Benedict, with slightly less formality and slightly more curiosity, his eyes moving over her in the way of someone who was looking at her the way he had been looking at the woman earlier, not with desire but with interest, the interest of someone noting something worth noting.

"Mr. Bridgerton," she said.

"Lady [Name]!" said Colin, and she liked him immediately with a completeness that surprised even her, because he said it with the enthusiastic warmth of someone who was genuinely pleased to meet a new person and had never developed the studied coolness that the Ton considered appropriate to his age and station. He bowed with slightly less polish than his brothers and slightly more sincerity. "Are you enjoying the evening?"

"I am now," she said honestly, and was rewarded with a grin that was like a door opening.

She could see, in her peripheral vision, that Anthony had looked at her sharply at that. She did not address it.

"My mother speaks very highly of you," Violet said, and [Name] looked at her with a warmth that was completely genuine. Lady Bridgerton, she had always thought from her memories of the show, was one of the best things in it, a woman who had loved with her whole heart and carried that love forward after loss as a form of living.

"Lady Bridgerton has been very kind to me," [Name] said, and meant it.

"I am told you are something of a scholar," Benedict said, and his voice had a quality of careful interest, genuine, not performative. "Miss Pemberton's student."

"Her colleague, she insists," [Name] said. "Though she taught me everything worth knowing."

Benedict smiled. It was a different smile from Colin's, quieter, more reserved, reaching his eyes in a way that suggested it was earned. "What are you reading at present?"

"Natural philosophy," she said. "And a French text on botanical medicine that a friend in Paris sent through my father's contacts."

Benedict blinked. "Botanical medicine."

"Plants used in treatment," she said helpfully. "The therapeutic applications of—"

"I know what it is," he said, and he sounded, she thought, slightly delighted. "I simply did not expect—"

"What?" she said, and kept her voice perfectly pleasant.

He had the good grace to recognize the trap. "Nothing that would sound well if I said it aloud," he said instead, and this time the smile was full and real and she found herself returning it before she made the conscious decision to.

Anthony, who had been watching this exchange with an expression she couldn't fully read, said: "Are you out this Season, Lady [Name]?"

"I am," she said, turning her attention to him with the same pleasant composure she had brought to the conversation with his brothers. Close up, his eyes were very dark and very focused, and she had the sense that he did not look at most things as closely as he was looking at her, and that this was likely not something he was doing on purpose.

"Your first?" he asked.

"Yes."

"I hope it proves enjoyable," he said, which was the appropriate thing to say and said in the appropriate tone, formal and correct, and she would have thought nothing of it except that underneath the formality there was something that she was not going to name yet, something her Omega instincts recognized before her conscious mind fully caught up.

"I expect it will be interesting," she said, which was honest.

She curtsied and moved on, because she was not going to organize her first conversation around staying in it, and she had learned a long time ago that the most effective exit from any interaction was a graceful one.

But she thought about it, afterward, for longer than was strictly practical.

She had not expected to meet Queen Charlotte in her first Season.

Lady Danbury had arranged it, which was to say Lady Danbury had decided it was happening and had informed the relevant parties, including [Name], after the arrangements were already made. This was characteristic. In the two years since their first meeting at the concert, [Name] had developed a genuine and deep fondness for Lady Danbury that she was fairly sure was mutual, expressed in the form of Lady Danbury continuing to seek her company and occasionally saying things about her to other people that were very close to complimentary when filtered through the particular translation layer of Lady Danbury's communication style.

"The Queen wishes to meet the Season's more interesting prospects," Lady Danbury informed her, over tea on a Wednesday morning two weeks into the Season. "I have told Her Majesty that you are the most interesting prospect and she is inclined to take my word for it. She will see you Thursday."

"I see," [Name] said.

"You are not afraid," Lady Danbury observed.

"Should I be?"

"Most girls are terrified. It's tiresome." A pause. "Though if you are not afraid, don't perform fear for her benefit. She can smell performance at forty paces and she finds it offensive."

"Noted," [Name] said.

She was not, in fact, afraid. She was, if she was being precise with herself, more focused than usual, the way she had felt before significant medical procedures in her past life, the heightened alertness that served performance without impeding it. Queen Charlotte, in her memories of the story, was a woman of considerable intelligence who was carrying a considerable burden that almost no one in her world fully understood, and who had developed a comprehensive armor against a world that mostly didn't try.

She also knew, because she had spent twelve years thinking about it, that this was the point. This was the moment her past life's knowledge became directly, urgently useful in a way that might change things.

She dressed carefully for Thursday. Not elaborately, she had learned, from Lady Danbury and from her own extensive observation, that elaborateness in this context read as trying too hard, and trying too hard with this particular Queen would be precisely the wrong approach. She wore a gown in deep blue, simply cut, with her hair arranged with care but without artifice, and she was delivered to the palace with her mother in a state of approximately controlled calm.

Her mother was considerably more nervous.

"You will be respectful," Constance said, for the second time in the carriage.

"Yes, Mama."

"You will be measured in your speech."

"Yes, Mama."

"You will not say anything that—"

"Mama." [Name] reached over and covered her mother's hand with hers. "I will be fine."

Constance looked at her, that particular look that mothers wore when they were confronting the evidence of how extraordinary their child was and finding the evidence simultaneously wonderful and slightly overwhelming. "Yes," she said softly. "I know you will."

Queen Charlotte received her in a private salon, without the full court apparatus, which was itself a kind of signal, an indication that this was intended to be an actual conversation rather than a ceremonial presentation. Lady Danbury was present, standing to the side with the quiet satisfaction of someone who had arranged something they are pleased about.

[Name] curtsied with the form her mother had spent weeks drilling into her, perfectly executed, and then straightened and looked at the Queen directly, with the respectful attention she gave to everyone she considered worth attending to.

Charlotte was watching her with the sharp, assessing quality that she had expected, the look of a woman who had spent decades reading people and had developed, through that practice, an accuracy that was very nearly clinical. She was resplendent and contained, beauty and authority combined in the way of someone who had been performing both for so long that the performance had become something else.

"Lady [Name] Ashworth," the Queen said.

"Your Majesty," [Name] said.

"Lady Danbury tells me you are exceptional."

"Lady Danbury is very kind, Your Majesty."

"Lady Danbury is never kind," Charlotte said, without particular inflection. "She is accurate. There is a difference." A pause. "You are aware of it."

"Yes, Your Majesty."

Charlotte's eyes narrowed slightly, not with displeasure but with the sharpening attention of someone who had received an unexpected answer. "Sit down," she said. "I dislike conversations where I must look up."

[Name] sat, with the ease of someone who had spent two years having conversations with Lady Danbury and had therefore been extensively trained in the management of formidable women.

"Lady Danbury tells me you have an interest in medicine," Charlotte said.

"In natural philosophy and the treatment of illness, Your Majesty. Yes."

"An unusual interest for a young woman of your station."

"Perhaps, Your Majesty. I find the usual alternatives less compelling."

"Embroidery and music."

"Music I enjoy very much. Embroidery I respect in principle but find insufficiently challenging to hold my attention for long."

There was a pause. And then, quietly, like something that had not been planned, Queen Charlotte smiled. It was small and brief and genuine, the smile of a woman who found something actually amusing rather than the performed pleasure of court smile, and [Name] felt it land with the significance of something rare.

"You are honest," Charlotte said.

"I try to be, Your Majesty. I find most other approaches require too much maintenance."

Charlotte looked at her for a long moment. Lady Danbury, to the side, was doing a very good impression of someone who was not deeply, smugly pleased.

"Tell me," Charlotte said, "what do you know of nervous afflictions? Of the mind's effects on the body?"

The question was precise and she landed on it with the controlled response of someone who had not expected to be asked it in exactly those terms but had been thinking about it for years. She felt the particular sharpening clarity that had always come over her when a difficult diagnostic question arrived, the way the whole of her knowledge organized itself around the problem, the relevant pieces surfacing, the irrelevant receding.

"A great deal, Your Majesty," she said carefully. "In a theoretical capacity. I have read extensively, everything available, and some texts in French and German through correspondence with scholars my father has been kind enough to facilitate."

Charlotte was very still. "And what does your reading suggest?"

"That the mind and body are not as separate as current understanding tends to treat them," [Name] said, keeping her voice even and measured. "That certain afflictions which present as bodily have their origin in the nervous system and in its interaction with experience. And that—" She paused, choosing her next words with the care of someone navigating delicate terrain. "That many such conditions, which are currently considered untreatable, respond to specific intervention. If the intervention is correctly identified and applied consistently."

The silence in the room was very complete.

"You seem," Charlotte said slowly, "to be speaking about something specific."

"I am speaking generally, Your Majesty," [Name] said. "About the state of current understanding. Which I believe has significant room for development."

Charlotte looked at her. The sharpness in her gaze had become something else, something more complex, more layered. Something that was very close, [Name] thought, to hope, carefully controlled so as not to become desperation.

"I believe," Charlotte said, "that you should come to court again."

"I would be honored, Your Majesty."

"Not for a presentation. For a conversation." A pause. "I have a particular interest in the subject you describe."

"I am aware, Your Majesty," [Name] said gently. And then, because she had decided that honesty was her only real option with this woman, and because she believed that this moment mattered: "I came prepared to speak about it, if Your Majesty wished."

Another silence.

And then Charlotte said, very quietly, as if the words required careful handling: "I think, Lady [Name], that you and I are going to understand each other very well."

In the weeks that followed her first meeting with the Queen, [Name] came to the palace three times.

The first visit was still largely formal, Charlotte learning the edges of her, the shape of what she knew and how she knew it, assessing with the careful thoroughness of a woman who had been disappointed by people who seemed promising and had learned to verify before trusting. [Name] submitted to this assessment without impatience. She understood it. She understood Charlotte, from the outside in a way that Charlotte could not know and that she was very careful about handling gently, not using what she knew as a lever, but as a guide. A way of finding the right words for the right moments.

The second visit was different. Charlotte dismissed her ladies, which was itself a signal, and looked at [Name] across the tea service with the directness of a woman who had decided to stop testing and start speaking.

"My husband," she said, without preamble.

"Yes," [Name] said.

"What do you know."

It was not a question.

[Name] took a slow breath. This was the moment she had thought about for years, not with dread, but with the careful, sobered awareness of its weight. "I know," she said, choosing each word with precision, "that what afflicts His Majesty is a condition of the nervous system. That it is not a failure of character, nor of intelligence, nor of sanity in the manner in which it is sometimes spoken of. That it is a physiological reality, something that exists in the tissue of the brain and in the chemistry of the blood, and that it is made significantly worse by certain things and somewhat better by others."

Charlotte was very still. "The physicians—"

"The physicians are doing what they can with what they have," [Name] said, with the honest fairness she brought to all assessments. "What they have is not yet sufficient to fully address the condition. But—" A pause. "There are things that help. That are not currently being tried, or not being tried in the right combination."

"What things?"

[Name] reached, carefully, into the small bag she had been permitted to bring with her, and produced a document she had spent three weeks preparing, handwritten, clear, organized with the systematic precision of a differential diagnosis and treatment plan, translated into the terminology of this era with the care of someone who understood that effective communication required meeting the audience where they were.

She set it on the table between them.

Charlotte looked at it. Then she looked at [Name]. "You prepared this."

"I have been preparing it for some time," [Name] said honestly. "I hoped for the opportunity to share it."

Charlotte picked up the document and read it, slowly and completely, while [Name] sat with her tea and waited with the patience of someone who had sat through very long ward rounds and understood that the management of silence was a skill.

When she finished, Charlotte looked up. Her expression was something complex and layered that [Name] could not fully name, parts of it were relief, and parts of it were grief, and parts of it were something that was almost anger, the anger of someone who had been waiting too long for an answer that should have arrived sooner.

"Who else has seen this?" Charlotte said.

"No one, Your Majesty."

"It must remain so."

"I understand."

"If this works—" Charlotte stopped. The controlled herself with the visible effort of a woman who had been managing the appearance of composure for so long it had become structural. "If this works," she said again, more steadily, "I will owe you a debt that I am not certain can be adequately repaid."

"I ask nothing in return," [Name] said, which was true. "He is suffering. You are suffering. If I can help, then I should."

Charlotte looked at her for a long moment. Something in her expression shifted, not softened exactly, because Charlotte was not a woman who softened, but opened, slightly, the way a room opened when a window was lifted.

"You are," she said slowly, "a remarkable young woman."

"I have been told so," [Name] said. "I try to deserve it."

The third visit, six weeks after the first, Queen Charlotte received [Name] not in the public salon but in her private sitting room, the inner chambers that very few people outside the immediate royal household ever entered. It was a privilege so unusual that even Lady Danbury, when informed of it, was briefly and expressively speechless.

[Name] sat with the Queen and drank tea and they talked for two hours, and some of what they discussed was the King and the careful, slow work of implementing the interventions [Name] had outlined, adjusted and refined through the ongoing consultation between them. Some of what they discussed was other things, books, and philosophy, and the management of a world that did not always make room for women who thought clearly and acted on what they found.

At the end of the two hours, Charlotte said, with the directness that [Name] had come to understand was her highest mode of respect: "I intend to make it known that you are under my particular regard. This will smooth certain paths for you."

[Name] understood precisely what this meant. Queen Charlotte's favor was one of the most significant social currencies in the Ton. To be under her particular regard was not simply an honor, it was a form of protection, a signal to the social architecture of London that this person was not to be casually dismissed or managed. For an Omega girl in her first Season, it was transformative.

"I am grateful, Your Majesty," she said.

"Don't be grateful," Charlotte said crisply. "Be useful. Continue being as remarkable as you are. That is what I require of you."

"I can do that," [Name] said.

Charlotte looked at her, and the expression on her face was the expression of a woman who believed her.

Author's Note:

Thank you to everyone who liked my story! I decided to make the chapters a bit longer so the story doesn’t get cut off so abruptly. I really appreciate all the support and hope you enjoy the next updates.

We finally introduced the Bridgertons, the Queen, and my beloved Lady Danbury in this chapter!

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