#thyroid-hypothyroidism

Like most of the time they are helpful and supportive and other times you’re just like, I wish I didn’t have to explain what is going on right now because I am in so much pain, I CAN’T!

Like they don’t understand that you can literally feel your body deteriorate and I know they’re trying to be helpful when they say, “Just wait for the tests to come back before you shave your head,” but that’s the thing. I don’t need the tests to know that my body is this sick. I CAN FEEL IT. I only need those tests for the doctor to believe me and get me on the right medication. 

I CAN FEEL MY HAIR FALLING OUT.

I CAN FEEL MY FATIGUE.

I AM SO SENSITIVE TO COLD LATELY AND THAT IS NORMALLY THE OPPOSITE OF ME.

I KNOW MY BOWELS ARE NOT REGULAR.

I CAN FEEL MY DRY ASS SKIN AND TRYING TO BREATHE ANY KIND OF LIFE INTO IT.

I CAN FEEL AND SEE THE WEIGHT GAIN.

I CAN SEE A PUFFY FACE THAT WILL NOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME GO DOWN.

AND I KNOW MY MEMORY IS FADING QUICKLY AND IT IS FREAKING ME THE FUCK OUT.

I know all these things are happening to me and I know I’m sick. I don’t need a test to tell me that, but everyone else does and until then everyone else gets to invalidate my feelings until science comes back and proves my feelings right. 

Characters with:

- Epilepsy

- Diabetes 

- Psoriasis

- Rheumatoid Arthritis

- Inflammatory bowel disease (crohn's disease or ulcerative colitis)

- Cystic Fibrosis

- Celiac Disease

- Hypothyroidism/Goiter

- Hyperthyroidism 

- Asthma 

- Paramyloidosis

- Sarcoidosis

- Multiple Sclerosis

- Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis

- Spina bifida

- Lupus 

This is kinda an update on me… so… I have been diagnosed with hypothyroidism for about 7-8 years now. A few months ago the thyroid specialist found a lymphnode (big growth) on my thyroid. So now this Monday they’re going to stick a needle in my neck to check and see if it’s a malignant tumor or not. My anxiety is not helping me out right now and I’m really freaking myself out…

Me & My Broken Thyroid. 

I’ve been wanting to introduce myself for a while, but have been putting it off because I’ve never really been one for talking about myself. That being said, I guess there’s no time like the present.

My name’s Rachel and in case it wasn’t already blatantly obvious, I love fitness and healthy living. Even more than that, however, I love the idea of having a healthy mentality toward my body.

I’ve never been what you would call, confident. I grew up being over weight as a kid and when I was in the 5th grade I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism. For those that don’t know, your Thyroid is a part of your Endocrine system and it controls your metabolism. If it’s too fast or too slow this can cause problems like severe weight gain or loss. Having Hypo means that mine is working way too slow and it began to affect my height, my mood, and most of all my weight. Although I began treatment immediately, and have been treated ever since, those years of being over weight still stick with me. 

I’ve never been very happy with how I look and at the beginning of my college career I wanted to do something about it. I began working out and eating healthier. It got to the point where I was at the gym every single day, but even though I was skinny I still wasn’t happy; I still nitpicked every little aspect of myself and having a slow metabolism made me think I would never actually be able to be where I wanted to be. I’m not exactly sure what changed in me, but I soon began to realize that just working out wouldn’t make me happy and above all, starving myself wouldn’t either. 

Now, I face the end of my senior year of college. I’m not fat, but I’m not skinny. I’m muscular, but I still jiggle and above all, I am not perfect and I never will be, but

 I. love. myself. 

I love my personality. I love my giant hips that I hit on every piece of furniture I own. I love my hair, my eyes, my attitude. 

I’ve surrounded myself with beautiful, amazing, and irreplaceable people. I would never judge them by the way they look, so why should I do that to myself?

Everything is easier said than done and I’m not saying I don’t still have days where I think twice about looking in the mirror, but I still love myself because there’s no one else like me- just as there’s no one else out there like you.

You are unique. You are beautiful. You are amazingly you.