~ ramble of sorts, feel free to skip. discussions of mh & cancer/chemotherapy/ptsd.
Finally caught up with my psych and even tho I’m lowkey pissed I basically broke down otp and explained how my flash backs are getting progressively worse and I can physically feel and taste the chemo in my body to the point I’m getting acid reflux & shakes, and I *cannot* leave my house and haven’t since the beginning of September, she concluded that as just ‘anxiety’ bro don’t make me jump off this jersey bridge rn !! Because I will!!
But !!!!! Good news is !! the worms in my brain are making my writing flow easier when it comes to the level of angst I’m going for, apparently recycling ur own shit to ur silly 3D character in ur head is ACTUALLY better than therapy !! 9/10 idiots on tumblr recommend !!
But yeah, tryna get back into the swing of things bc im at the stalemate point when even engaging with my friends or doom scrolling feels like a chore, so I'm sorry for not being more active n shit, especially when you guys r cooking some HEAT on my TL recently. I feel silly doing these apology tours because I know it's not something I really need to say, but if I don't, I will get the fear. Very scary stuff. Anyway, it's Friday, and we have a new HEALTH single, so you win some, you lose some!
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