#syscourse rant

Love how pro endos always say "hope this helps" as if they haven't said the most stupid shit in your inbox.

Yes your threats and misinformed opinions are sooo helpful thank you, iv learned.

so then i got an ask that was p clearly designed to induce paranoia (i’m guessing they dug through my blog a bit and gathered that i’m schizo-affective) and god forbid i reply to a pro endo post that’s entirely misinformative about all systems, because i’ll be met with the most conniving, passive aggressive, and just plain mean remarks.

the real thing that gets me is that all of their oppression is entirely self imposed. they invade spaces, demand attention, and when they’re told that what they’re doing is wrong, they throw a tantrum and start linking twitter threads with cherry picked evidence about how right they are. they make up buzzwords that are just plain bastardizations of terms related to trans history and oppression, and that is not unintentional. it is a purposeful play on language to heighten the sense of a liberation front for something that simply does not exist. manipulation like that is outright disgusting, and i have no problem thinking less of people who believe that it is okay.

i am especially mad at all the misinformation that gets spread? as someone who is figuring their system out and trying to learn things, misinformation can be extremely dangerous for me and it’s more than disheartening to think i’ve learned something new only to see “pro endo” in the tags and realize that i can’t trust a word i’ve just read. i don’t get why they can’t at least keep it to themselves if they can’t just shut up about it forever and always.

Would very much appreciate it if pro endos stopped posting in syspunk tags as it's an anti endo space. Keep your pluralpunk and what have you but syspunk is specifically for us.

Many have said it we'll keep saying it until you listen.

Genuinely really fucking tired of (pro) endos not reading the dnis of blogs before interacting. It's basic fucking curtsey to respect boundaries

The amount of endos I and people close to me had to block because they broke our boundary by either reblogging from or following our blogs is absurd.

Not to mention some of them had the fucking audacity to make the argument that "it's the internet you don't get to have boundaries" which is a whole other fucked up can of worms.

Jesus Christ.

im fine with beings that are plural for religous, theriaputical, ect reasons, as long as the plural being isnt claiming to have did osdd udd ect i could care less. its just when people claim to have disorders without the LITERAL REQUIREMENTS for the disorder it pisses me off so much

to some people, no, that just seems like im overreacting. in my honest opinion, i feel like me being upset and annoyed is justified, especially when every single one of these terms affect me greatly. i clearly know about my disorder; yes, there are some things that im still figuring out, and there are definitely some things that still confuse me. however, i do not need minors -- people that are easily a decade younger than me -- telling me that i do not know what one of the most basic system terms mean, especially when that term heavily applies to me.

im talking about fusion. im a fusion of, well, myself and the old host. we fused for reasons that i dont want to express online. i have seen multiple people, especially minors, confuse fusion and integration. being a fused alter is 100% part of my identity, whether people like that or not. being told that there is little to no difference between integration and fusion is, quite honestly, upsetting. theres a major difference between these two things; yes, they both do happen. yes, they can happen “randomly”. yes, these are basic, normal things that happen within systems. no, they are not near the same, in fact, no where near the same.

to be told that im.. “aggressive” when correcting people, or that im disrespectful and rude, especially when im just simply trying to help them understand the difference between these two terms, its honestly offensive and, yet again, upsetting. i dont even think i need to say why calling a POC “aggressive” is offensive. i do not understand how im rude, or disrespectful, when i correct someone on terms. yes, they may have not understand, and thats fine, but as soon as they start arguing about if im right or wrong, thats when it starts to bother me, especially if theyre already.. wrong.

dealing with stuff like this on a near daily, actually multiple times a week, it gets so exhausting. it gets to the point that i dont want to help younger systems anymore, because if they dont want to listen, why even waste my breath trying to help? if im also allowed to be honest, i dont think i want to continue to engage in any minor inclusive discord servers after this. like i said, it happens on a near daily, and being one of the oldest in these servers is.. not helpful for me, at all, especially if no one wants to listen, or gets aggressive with me when i attempt to correct them.

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tldr; if an adult system tells you, a minor, that you misused a term and have corrected you, all while being as kind and gentle as possible, please do not make a fuss or tell them that theyre wrong. it really only makes us dislike being in spaces with you, and drives us away from interacting with you.