30 Days of DID
The non-parts-focused ask meme can be found here.
Day One :
When and how did you find out you have DID?
Content warning: discussion of abuse, forced syscovery, and trauma from aforementioned events.
...what a way to kick this off. Lmao.
A few people on this app probably know about our syscovery, because we share this story oftenβand there are multiple reasons for that. Some of it (especially when we first started sharing our story) is a need for validation of the abuse we experienced during that time. Nowadays, most of the reason we're so open about it is to spread awareness on how harmful forced syscovery is, and to let others know they aren't alone in their own experiences.
October 12th, 2023.
Most "memory" of our syscovery is a compilation of flashbacks, and retellings from a witness we trust/are very close to (our lovely partner). Our general knowledge of our syscovery is most easily laid out in a series of events, like so, to avoid dissociating/triggering myself lol.
We had a shitty abusive roommate with DID
They recognized our symptoms and pressed us constantly about our dissociation despite our INSISTENCE we could not possibly have a CDD
They took advantage of our heavy exhaustion and dissociation on one particular day (i.e. the 12 of October) and forced us to acknowledge we were a system
[more detailed story here on our sideblog for those curious]
^ That led to a lot of distress and resurfacing/prematurely acknowledged trauma that we were NOT ready nor safe to handle (you know, actively living with. One of the worst people I've had the misfortune of allowing into our life).
Don't force syscovery lmfao. That should be common sense. Let people find out in the safety of a trusted professional's office or just on their own terms in general that they have a trauma disorder. We were robbed of the chance to figure out we were a system in safety, don't do the same to others.
Also fuck that abuser and their savior complex bullshit. Good riddance. That was the most traumatic period of my life.
