#sethos posting

It’s thunderstorming outside at the moment. Sethos and I would sit and watch storms pass from afar. He doesn’t need chatter to have a good time, which I’ve always appreciated. He would just hold me, and I’d rest my head on his shoulder, and that was that.

I wish he was here. I’m very much missing his presence at the moment. I just want someone to lay down with in silence. I’m not good at speaking, but he never minded. I could lay curled against his chest for hours listening to his breaths and heartbeat, feeling his fingers comb through my hair. I need to feel that gentleness again. I need to not feel alone.

I miss Sethos so fucking much. I need him to be with me here in this life. Trying to function without his reassurance and attention is like trying to breathe with only one lung.

Can the brain just suck it up and give me a goddamn Sethos? Surely it would be more beneficial than detrimental at this point.

I just want to talk to him again. I miss laying down and studying his face while he would yap about the most recent errands he’d run. I miss it more than words can even say.

What am I doing here. I’m nothing without him.

I wish Sethos were here so I could just rage vent to him about everything.