that Thing you're working so hard for, so hard that others don't even KNOW how hard? you might not get it. that's the dirty dishwater reality of life; no matter who you are, the odds are not all in your favour. so you can't control. but you plan! which is great! just pick a direction! because you don't Know all the things youre gunna Know once you're just walking towards That Goal are gunna Teach you. if you'll indulge me; instead of looking back, to when you didnt Know All the Things that you Know now, and picking yourself apart psychologically like "WHY DIDNT I DO X" or "I SHOULD'VE JUST--" fuck off w that shit, that shit is Unhelpful, objectively. subjectively yes you can take MOST criticism constructively if you Want To but like..... fr..... you know AAAALL these things now that you did Not know back then. you know new things!!! you did the best you could LITERALLY do because NOW you now better so ? like it's fine. you did it. you learned from a mistake? that SUCKS subjectively, but in the long run like earth keeps spinning mate like moving.right.along.com let's go, live and learn and live and learn over and over again. but you gotta live so you can learn. you see the problem? you gotta LIVE first before you can like.. learn FROM Living... does this... does this make sense... 👀 so yeah hindsight is a 20/20 lens because you Know a Lot More Things now, than you did Back Then.
which MEANS... by THAT logic..... even if you personally fuck EVERYTHING up that you could POSSIBLY fuck up, it will still turn out more or less FINE. because at least you already Moved Forward in the right direction ROUGHLY. then you tinker and pivot and adapt and move.right.along.com live and learn babey