#reverts

Happiness is in the hands of Allah ﷻ alone. How can you still be searching for it far away from Him!

Allah ﷻ says:

وَأَنَّهُ هُوَ أَضحَكَ وَأَبكى

“And It is He (Allah) alone who (made mankind) laugh and cry”. 

"May Allah have mercy on a servant who takes advantage of the days of strength and youth and hastens to repentance and turning back (to Allah) before the book is closed."

Al-Fawaakih Al-Shahiyyah (217).

‏قال العلامة السعدي رحمه الله :

فرحم الله عبداً اغتنم أيام القوة والشباب وأسرع بالتوبة والإنابة قبل طي الكتاب.*

Honestly, Allah is the turner of hearts and he guides whom he wills. Now, that being said. It is important for you to be around people who talk about Deen and if those people are not around you then seek Islamic knowledge online. Go to YouTube, search Twitter and TikTok because us Muslims are EVERYWHERE! We understand that there is always someone new coming into Islam or they are turning back because it is never too late until your last breathe. Find friends online and at a local mosque. I understand it can be difficult to make friends for a lot of reasons, so I am here if you need a friend.

So, turning away from a sin will do numerous good things for your mental, physical, and spiritual health. Any sin we commit is a form of addiction and addiction starts from curiosity. When we are around the group of people who do haram acts which is sinful then drop them. Simply, just let those people go because they are not worth your sacrifice for paradise. So, drop them and pray for them to be guided by Allah, as he is the turner of hearts.

Focusing on you, make friends with Muslims who are putting the Deen first and figuring out how to balance deen and dunya. We do make mistakes, but it is so so so important that we keep turning back. Does not matter if you have committed all the sins in the world, once you raise your hands and ask Allah for forgiveness then inshallah you will be forgiven. So, make friends have your social media following be Muslims who give out reminders about Islam.

Try to pray even if it is 2 rakat fardh, just get one prayer in atleast then work your way up. You will be getting multiple blessings just trying shower, cleaning yourself, doing wudhu, and rolling out your prayer mat. There is so many blessings in that and your intention of praying will be written down and so will the act if something happened and you were not able to perform. Now, that does not mean being carried away watching Netflix. Just pray at least one prayer a day, habibi.

Listen to Quran, open YouTube search surah Baqarah and let the voice of the reciters throughout your room/house or even just your ears. You can meditate, clean, cook, write, study while the Quran is being recited. There is so much barakha in this and when this surah is played shaytaan runs from that place/house. So, play it daily.

Learn about Islam, there is so much to learn because this is such a beautiful religion. Allah tells us himself to read the Quran, look at everything around us and become curious. How is the moon and sun in balance? How does the Sun know when to come out? Why are we created? The answers are in the Quran, everywhere, so many scholars have written about then and there is multiple lectures too.

Take care of your health, your environment, clean your home. Clean on Fridays, take showers on Fridays, pray, read the Quran, attain islamic knowledge, and send blessings upon our prophet Muhammad (saws).

Always start small

Learn

Pray

Take care of yourself

This is what has been helping me when I fall back into sinful acts. I have been there and I am letting you know it will be okay. Our creator is merciful, Allah will forgive us every time. Ask for forgiveness and do your best to not do those again.

Don't beat yourself up after doing something haram/sinful. Just start fresh the moment you realize it, slowly come back and keep reminders. You're amazing, beautiful, special. You will be ok.

On the topic of chosen names:

If you are someone who believes that the construction of one's identity - be it gender, sexuality, faith - is entirely dependent on the choices of the individual, then please also extend that to people who convert to other religions, especially to Islam or Judaism.

Let me draw up a parallelism. People assert that a trans person who changes their name should no longer be referred to by their old name. I ask you to extend the same courtesy to people who change their names after converting to other religions.

Call them by what they go by now, and not what they used to go by.