#ihsan

İçimde çağlayan bir hamd var..

Di kantor, kita diajarkan untuk profesional.

Ada KPI. Ada OKR. Ada dashboard. Ada weekly review. Ada one-on-one. Ada performance appraisal.

Kalau performa turun sedikit saja, kita langsung mencari akar masalahnya. Data dibuka. Penyebab dicari. Rencana perbaikan dibuat. Minggu depan dievaluasi lagi.

Kita begitu serius.

Lalu saya bertanya pada diri sendiri.

Mengapa keseriusan seperti ini jarang saya bawa ke dalam urusan akhirat?

Bukan berarti saya mendikotomikan dunia dan akhirat. Justru sebaliknya. Saya ingin profesionalisme yang sama hadir dalam perjalanan menuju Allah.

Selama ini, saya sering merasa cukup hanya dengan, "Alhamdulillah masih shalat."

Padahal mungkin saya perlu bertanya lebih jauh.

Apakah kekhusyukan saya minggu ini meningkat atau justru menurun?

Apakah hubungan saya dengan Al-Qur'an semakin dekat atau semakin jauh?

Apakah dosa yang sama masih terus saya ulang?

Apakah saya semakin mudah memaafkan?

Apakah saya semakin takut berbuat zalim?

Apakah pekerjaan saya hari ini benar-benar diniatkan sebagai ibadah, atau hanya sekadar mengejar target dan pengakuan manusia?

Lucunya, untuk pekerjaan kita hafal semua metrik.

Revenue.

Conversion rate.

Customer satisfaction.

Response time.

Deadline.

Tetapi untuk hati, sering kali kita tidak memiliki indikator apa pun.

Padahal hati itulah yang akan kita bawa menghadap Allah.

Saya kemudian membayangkan shalat lima waktu sebagai momen evaluasi.

Bukan sekadar berhenti bekerja karena adzan telah berkumandang.

Tetapi berhenti sejenak untuk membuka "dashboard keimanan".

Seperti seorang manajer yang sedang meninjau performa.

Bagaimana kondisi hati saya sejak shalat sebelumnya?

Apa yang saya pikirkan sepanjang pagi?

Bagaimana saya memperlakukan orang lain?

Apakah pekerjaan tadi membuat saya semakin bersyukur atau justru semakin sombong?

Apakah saya masih mengingat Allah di sela-sela aktivitas, atau benar-benar tenggelam dalam urusan dunia?

Menariknya, Allah memberikan kesempatan itu lima kali setiap hari.

Kalau perusahaan memiliki weekly review, Allah menghadiahkan lima kali momentum muhasabah setiap hari.

Profesionalisme dunia tetap penting.

Deadline tetap harus dipenuhi.

Amanah tetap harus ditunaikan.

Pekerjaan tetap harus dilakukan dengan ihsan.

Namun mengapa keseriusan itu sering berhenti di ruang rapat?

Mengapa ia tidak ikut masuk ke dalam sajadah?

Saya membayangkan, seandainya kita memperlakukan pertumbuhan iman dengan disiplin yang sama seperti kita memperlakukan pertumbuhan karier.

Bukan untuk mengubah ibadah menjadi angka.

Bukan pula untuk merasa bisa mengukur kedekatan dengan Allah.

Rahmat Allah tidak pernah bisa dimasukkan ke dalam spreadsheet.

Tetapi disiplin dalam bermuhasabah adalah sesuatu yang bisa kita latih.

Mungkin itulah "KPI Keimanan".

Bukan Key Performance Indicator dalam arti korporasi.

Melainkan sebuah pengingat agar kita memiliki keseriusan yang sama dalam mengejar ridha Allah sebagaimana kita mengejar target dunia.

Karena pada akhirnya, perusahaan hanya akan menilai performa kita sampai kontrak berakhir.

Sedangkan Allah menilai perjalanan kita sampai akhir kehidupan.

Mungkin sudah waktunya kita memiliki satu dashboard lagi.

Bukan dashboard pekerjaan.

Tetapi dashboard hati.

Yang setiap selesai shalat kita buka.

Kita evaluasi.

Lalu kita bertanya kepada diri sendiri,

Dijital dünyanın içine doğan kaçıncı nesiliz, saydın mı hiç? Uyanır uyanmaz bildirimleri, fırsat bulduğumuz her an gönderileri kontrol etmek, artık günlük rutinimiz haline geldi. Sosyal medya, haber almanın ötesinde kendimizi ifade etmek, hatta varlığımızı kanıtlamak için kullandığımız bir alan haline geldi. Her gün bir şeyler paylaşıyoruz. Eli telefona en az gidenimiz bile birkaç beğeniyle orada, o dünyada yerini alıyor. Peki, tüm bunlar ne için?

Arzudan Huzura

Bir fotoğraf paylaşınca içimizin bir anlığına aydınlanması, "story"lerimiz fazla izlenince içimizden geçen o küçük sevinç...

Fark edilmek, anlaşılmak, varlığının bir karşılığı olduğunu hissetmek, insanın yaratılışından gelen bir ihtiyaç. Fakat an geliyor, ne kadar çabalasa da yeterince görülmediğine dair his, insanın içini karıştırmaya yetiyor.

Sahi insanı huzurla buluşturan, kalbini tatmin eden şey, birilerinin görmesi mi? Yoksa Rabbinin görüp bildiğini bilmek mi, ne dersin? Soruları sevelim derim sevgili arkadaşım ki bazı sorular, bazı cevaplardan çok daha iyi gelir.

Başkalarının onayını aramak, gerçekten kendin olmanın huzurunu verebilir mi? Allah Teala'nın nazarında görülmek, bizim için ne anlama geliyor? Birinde "'beni fark etsinler" gerginliği, ötekinde "kimse bilmese de O celle celaluhu beni biliyor, görüyor" güveni; işte bu fark, iç huzuruyla gürültü arasındaki ince çizgi.

Yüreğinle Görülmek

Ekranlar geçicidir. Trendler biter, algılar değişir. Ama amel defterine kayıtlı bir niyet bakidir.

Bir tebessümde, bir selamda, bir hayırda, bir iyilikte... Rabbimizin bizi nasıl "beğendiğini" bizzat keşfettiğimiz anlar çoğaldıkça, içimizde gerçek bir huzur doğar. Yaratanın nazarında; bir niyetle, derin bir teslimiyetle, samimi bir varoluşla yol aldıkça...

Gerçek "beğeni" işte o an gelir. Hangi mecrada olursa olsun, niyetimizle tartılırız, butonlarla değil.

-Deniz Fatma Saraç - Aile Danışmanı-

Neyi feda edersen sana o ihsan edilir,

(59:16)

كَمَثَلِ الشَّيْطَانِ إِذْ قَالَ لِلْإِنسَانِ اكْفُرْ فَلَمَّا كَفَرَ قَالَ إِنِّي بَرِيءٌ مِّنكَ إِنِّي أَخَافُ اللَّهَ رَبَّ الْعَالَمِينَ (The hypocrites have deceived them) just like Satan, when he says to human, “Disbelieve in God!” Then when he disbelieves, he says (to human): “Surely I am quit of you, for surely I fear God, the Lord of the worlds!”

(Al-Hashr 59:16)

One can draw a parallel between hypocrites and Satan. According to this verse, fearing God exists in the nature of Satan. This means that Satan knows God. Nevertheless, he always disobeys and rebels against God despite his knowledge. The exalted words of God warn us against the rebelliousness of Satan in various verses of the Qur’ān. Since Satan’s standing in rebellion and disobedience against his Lord’s commands implies his knowledge of obedience and submission to God, this shows that Satan is aware of both what obedience and submission mean as well as his duty of obedience and submission and that Satan rebels against God knowingly and intentionally.

In fact, God Almighty states in Sūratu’l-Kahf that,

“He (Satan) was of the jinn and transgressed against his Lord’s command” (18:50).

Thus, Satan is one of the jinn, who have been created from some sort of fire. It is likely that he was apparently in obedience to God until he was commanded to prostrate before Adam along with the angels. Like the angels, Satan, who belongs to the species of the jinn, was in a position to prostrate before Adam. However, in his nature he had an aspect vulnerable to disobedience, rebellion, and deviation. This aspect of his nature showed itself in the face of the command of “Prostrate before Adam!” immediately, and consequently Satan failed the test and has been lost as a result of opposing the command.

To summarize the realities about Satan and his nature, Satan deviated by not obeying God’s command of prostrating before Adam and was utterly defeated by the rebellious aspect of his nature.

The same is always possible for human beings. There are such moments or cases when a human being, that noblest and most honorable of creatures, is defeated by their feelings or impulses such as anger, jealousy, hatred, and lusts that have been inserted in their nature as the elements of their trials and perfectibility, enters upon a way opposite to their conscience and almost deviates from humanity or being truly human. For instance, the feeling of jealousy caused many among the People of the Book to reject Prophet Muhammad, upon him be peace and blessings, and blinded their eyes to him, for they had been expecting that the Last Prophet would appear from among their own nation. The same or similar sort of attitudes may also dominate us momentarily or—may God forbid—continually.

Truly, there are lots of cases where feelings or emotions lead us to the wrong way in spite of reason and logic and where we find ourselves in a delirium unawares. Like this, Satan incessantly lives full of jealousy, hatred, and anger toward humankind. As Prophet Muhammad, upon him be peace and blessings, declared, Satan has never been able to free himself from thinking and remembering:

“Humankind was commanded to prostrate before God, and they did and gained. I was also commanded to prostrate, but I did not and I have been lost.” It is likely that he utters screams of rebellion each time he sees human beings prostrate before God, which is the most explicit sign of their obedience and submission to God, and he finds himself in delirium. When the call to the Prayer is recited and the believers move and advance toward mosques to worship and bow down in prostration, Satan runs around in craziness so as not to hear the call to the Prayer.

Every act of human beings which means their obedience to and reinforces their connection with their Lord increases Satan in jealousy, hatred, anger, and delirium. Just imagine a person who is told that his son has been killed by a gang; this leads him to anger with that gang, and his anger increases when he hears that his wife has been kidnapped, and as a result, that person is full of the feelings of vengeance and can be expected to do everything in his power against the gang. Just like this person’s psychology, Satan feels continuous and increasing anger, hatred, and grudges against humankind, and this will continue until the Last Day.

In consequence, even though Satan has as much knowledge of God as fearing Him, he deviated from the Straight Path, defeated by the rebellious aspect of his nature and has been lost eternally.

The hypocrites and unbelievers who are persistent in unbelief and heresy and whose unbelief has been ingrained in their character are no different from Satan. If the word “God” sometimes comes out from their mouths and if they talk about religion and religious life positively, this is aimed at deception. They act with rancor and enmity toward believers and never keep back from searching for the ways to satisfy their anger and enmity. When they are unable to do evil with and inflict harm on believers, they act hypocritically, trying to conceal their hatred and enmity behind their deceptive smiles and gentleness and championing democracy. But whenever they find an opportunity and are able to do whatever they wish to harm believers, they commit all kinds of wickedness in the name of their unbelief. For them, might is right, and democracy is only a fantasy or is acceptable only as long as it serves their interests.

While putting trust in such people is disrespect for the feeling of trust, being in fear of them is distrust in God. Undeterred by satanic unbelievers and hypocrites, believers should always be open and frank toward everyone and act with love and affection, taking refuge in God from such people and their evils.

“Biz inanıyoruz, Osmanlı’nın torunlarıyla Kudüs’te birlikte namaz kılacağız.”