happy pride to loveless autistics

happy pride to autistics who don't understand or struggle to identify attraction / love

happy pride to autistics who don't understand sex and sexuality

happy pride to autistics only attracted to fictional characters

happy pride to kinky autistics

happy pride to intersex autistics especially those with intersex conditions that "cause" autism

happy pride to queer autistics infantilized & treated like cannot choose own gender / sexuality labels

happy pride to trans & nonbinary autistics treated as "confused little girls" instead of their chosen gender / sexuality

happy pride to queer autistics treated as scary or sexual predators because of their autism + gender / sexuality

happy pride to trans & nonbinary autistics who are denied gender affirming care because of their autism

happy pride to autistics who don't understand or have concept of gender (either their own or other people's)

happy pride to autigender/autisexual autistics (gender / sexual identity can't separate from autism )

happy pride to xenogender autistics

happy pride to autistics who can't participate in pride parade / pride events due to sensory / accessibility needs

happy pride to autistics who can't come out because their caregivers are not supportive

happy pride to autistics who don't have words in their aac to explain their queerness

happy pride to autistics who struggle with pronouns or labels

happy pride to autistics who can't define their queerness

scary losing so many abilities quicker and quicker. with every stressor, even as small as leaving the house for appointment, it gets worse and not get better. speech has been incredibly difficult since my last appointment. speech loss episodes are getting longer and more frequent. only able to say short phrases out loud. spoke two full sentences since yesterday morning. had to lay down after. every word feels like getting hit by a truck. lost speech in the start of appointment and had to use my phone aac. doctor seemed skeptical that i could make my own decisions about HRT. the state is taking so long to cover a real device.

Did you also have “boy autism” growing up? Like I was rowdy in class, always trying to distract other kids, bad at everything academic and would only ever want to talk about my special interest which was dinosaurs (I still love dinosaurs) which led to me being diagnosed relatively early at 7-9 I dont exactly remember.

But yeah just like other autistic “girls” I tried to mask and be feminine and social cuz I was told that was good and the way I acted before was bad. That didn’t really work out, Im still not good at masking.

And the way this all presented when I got to middle school was I was this quirky obnoxious “not like other girls” girl who would always try to impess the boys but was also a bisexual furry? I was a pretty odd kid ngl