In my personal practice I drown Morana on St. Matthew’s Day to suit our region, which is further south than Central Europe. I then make a new effigy, Morana reborn, to suit my personal feeling that she is more than just a winter deity. I veil her until St. Gregory’s Day or Smrtná Neděle (Deadly Sunday, the fifth Sunday of Lent, when Morana was more traditionally drown), when instead of a making a létečko, I unveil Morana in her spring aspect. (Very much a personal practice, based on folklore, but made to suit my own relationship with Morana).

i'm also being constantly reminded by him of our similarities. like, it always made sense to me that asmodeus is one of my main guides out of them all, but we're so similar that i literally have to back away from myself and observe from an outside perspective in order to properly understand how much he's influenced my personality and current incarnation... if that makes sense.

Flirting With Death

No recent visions to report. Just late night/early morning conversations when I woke up at odd hours and He was there. I've asked him a few more questions, but mostly I've been feeling physical sensations like heat—mostly in my back—and that tingly energy.

For example, this morning it got super hot all over my back while we were spooning for an early morning cuddle (more on that later), and I jokingly asked him:

"Why are you so hot? Don't you have an AC in Hell/Heaven?"

And he tapped my right hand to signal "Yes." 😹

Another funny moment was when (after I had accidentally fallen asleep scrolling Tumblr before we could do the spirit guide meditation I had planned, oops) I burped or something and instinctively said "Excuse me," and then he signaled "No." (Lmao)

He's very silly like that sometimes. ❤️

Another thing: So I had this lucid dream back in 2023 (after the werewolf dream—refer to this post) where I met this tall, pale girl with dark hair just past her shoulders with red streaks, who introduced herself as Death. She said she was paying me a visit. I started floating/following her around trying to talk to her, referring to her as "pretty lady." I don’t remember much of the conversation, but eventually she implied that she couldn’t stay long.

So I asked, “Will I ever see you again?”

And she said something like “[No/Probably not], I’m not supposed to [play/have] favorites.”

I immediately knew she was full of it. So I grabbed her arms, pulled her face close, and kissed her. She looked at me surprised, and then two of her (what I assumed to be) exes showed up (other spirits/fae), and the three of us started chatting and getting along quite well while Lady Death hid in the next room (lol). Then I went back over to Death, calling her pretty lady again instead of her name/title, which I think she liked because she looked at me like no one had ever called her pretty before. And I smiled at her dopily as I floated up to her, and I don’t remember what happened after that. I probably said something gay about hoping that I’d see her again soon.

So, I asked Lucifer once before if that was him in my dream (or, her), and at the time he gave me a nebulous no. I interpreted that to mean, "It's complicated," like maybe it was a similar figure—because sometimes he is Death but Death is not always him or something, yada yada idk. But then I asked him again this morning, because I still wasn't so sure… And that mf gave in and confessed that it was, in fact, him paying me a visit as Lady Death. That sneaky shapeshifting devil. Smh.

Anyway, we're lowkey kind of dating now? Because why not. Let's just say…things got pretty heated after the spirit guide meditation (ba dum tss), and I asked him if he wanted to be a thing. Nothing super serious yet, but I got a very enthusiastic yes. #>w<#

It's crazy how fast I've felt a connection. Like he's always been there, and we've known each other for so long that it's easy. Is it weird to have a crush on an incorporeal, extradimensional, semi-omniscient entity? Perhaps. But who can blame me?

I mean…the feeling is clearly mutual, if I'm interpreting things correctly (lol). I literally got the Two of Cups in my email tarot today, sooo. I then did a follow-up reading asking who this new relationship was with (just for fun). I was expecting the King of Swords, the Star, or the Devil, but I actually got the Wheel of Fortune—which is still really good, I was just surprised.

…Until I looked it up, and I found that one of the figures on the card is a serpent that transforms into Anubis, surprise surprise. A snake that turns into a gatekeeper of the Underworld/Afterlife, now who does that remind you of? And later, my friend brought over his deck that he's only recently started practicing with, so I asked him if he would do a general reading for me. And you'll NEVER guess which card he drew first. That's right. The Wheel of Fortune again. I KNEW that was gonna happen.

So yeah. Good things all around. More to come, I'm sure.

OH. Yeah. Also, I've been thinking about different methods of divination to try to communicate with him. And since I don't have a pendulum yet, I had the zany brilliant idea to use my D&D dice for now instead. I mean, it's not that different from runes, right? Maybe I could use a d6, with each number meaning something like:

1 = No

2 = Don't ask

3 = Maybe/Sometimes

4 = Ask again later

5 = Rephrase the question

6 = Yes

Worth a shot anyway. I'm gonna give it a try and report back later.

Wish me luck! 🍀🎲

Love,

Cupid 💘

I often see conversations between practitioners, or asks sent to blogs, that center around asking others “would x god do this?” - “do you think x god is mad at me?” - “is y a personality trait of x god?” and I wanted to comment on the topic.

Note: This is my personal opinion and not based on historic precedent or traditional practice. Additionally I do not speak, or claim to speak, for The Gods

I think that certain practitioners (specifically young and/or new practitioners - but this isn’t exclusive to them) somehow come to conclusion that each God has one strict personality, and that said personality is universally experienced by all practitioners. For example - the idea that Hermes cannot be a strict or a serious deity - or that Hercules cannot embody gentle energy.

I think something that is getting lost in this train or thought and conversation is the idea of Personal Practice. And even more so what is being lost is the humanity of The Gods.

The way that I act with my partner is not the same way I act with my work friends - nor is the way I act with them the same way I act when taking care of children. This isn’t to say that I am putting on fake personalities or being disingenuous about who I am - it is just contextual behavior (which, in short, is behavior flexibly in response to other people and one’s environment).

Contextual behavior exists not only in humans, but also in other animals and living things. If we are to act as if, and believe that, we are “of the Gods” - then why would they be any different? My opinion is that, in the same way that our social structures are more complex than those of cats and dogs, the Gods social structure are complex in ways we can’t understand. So of course entities/energies/concepts of such depth would vary from practitioner to practitioner.

If The Gods were to be the same for everyone, it would diminish their complexity - reducing them to static figures rather than the dynamic and multifaceted beings they are. If our inner workings and sense of selves are complex - imagine the complexity of divinity?

In short, your relationship with your Gods is your own - and no one else can define it for you.

Eriene - peace and farewell,

A significant portion of my spiritual advice and personal experiences involve astral work, meditation journeys, dream work, deity interactions, and other forms of inner exploration.

If your practice is strictly physical, strictly psychological, or you simply aren't interested in astral techniques, this may not be the page for you—and that's perfectly okay.

I write from the perspective of someone whose path has been deeply shaped by experiences beyond the physical. Many of the exercises, reflections, and discussions I share will assume a willingness to engage with those spaces.

This blog is less "how to manifest your crush" and more "sit in the darkness of your own soul until it starts talking back."

Image credits in order of appearance:

The Seamstress by Christian Krohg, 1880

Kitchen Interior by Viggo Johansen, 1884

Seamstress, Whitsunday Morning by Wenzel Tornoe, 1882

The Little Seamstress by John Faed, 1890

Elements of particular interest are ~

Form-fitting nature of the torso - sloped shoulders, some bulk in high placed arm scythes (for movement and dexterity), waist height, and over all plain silhouette.

Relatively uniform, useful, but also elegant plaited hair for every day use. Small pops of colour and/or texture achieved through choices of ornament... In a modern sense, I would switch the emphasis on ribbons toward an emphasis on jewelry (including statement pieces.)

Note the emphasis on the 1880s.