#organizing thoughts

Tony is Scilian/Libyan

Clint has aremenian ancestery

Natasha originally are aggressively unknown but potentially Syrian or a lesser know location in russia

Bruce is Appalachian with French ancestry

Sam is Canon (though for me Sam gives off Cali/Sf raised)

Rhodey is Canon (though rhodey is philly)

Loki dyes his hair black to hide his red, he also go by she, they, and he.

Strange forgot his point of origin after a while

Wang deserves a break always

Mystique is not dating Destiny as of my au, due to the issues revolving around kurt (dont worry they'll get back together)

Wanda is complicated

Pepper was born in Minnesota but moved to Virginia for college. The irony doesnt surprise her.

In my au, Wanda and pietro mom had them but the father is not their actual father and its Erik (magneto). Wanda got her mom abilities (magic) and Pietro had gotten a hybrid form, his speed is a genetic change but also magically induced (which brings up the question what is considered x gene or not).

Vision is romantically interested in people but sexually he is not. (I sometimes ship him with clint and pietro. Wanda if she more level headed).

Pepper and Tony will never be toxic exs. Sorry, thats on the agenda. Natasha and Bucky, the potential is crazy for toxic exs. Flip that shit, tony and steve toxic exs shitck is choice. Vision and a toxic Wanda is mainly abusive at that point (especially if vision is trying to learn how to human).

Storm, not sure if i would ship her with anyone... maybe tchalla or Logan but eh... not sure yet

Tony celebrates mix holidays to honor his mom (not maria) and he put salt on howard grave (in this variant howard was a bastard and highly abusive, gave tony claustrophobia. Yes tony has to breath and focus when he is fighting in the suit.)

Tony knows how he was conceived and he hates that his mom said she was drunk is all. Bucky wished he could have made it hurt when he was sent after howard.

Tony and Bucky flirt in ranges of sweet to fuckong morbid

Bucky had a loving family. He is also romanian/Ukrainian on his mom side and Scottish on his dad side.

Steve dad was also abusive, in a more emotional way to steve and physical with his mom, which is why he probably latched onto howard so quickly and Erskine (emotional acceptance and shit). Steve is Irish on his mom side and American (united states) on his dad side.

I headcanon steve doesnt actually have any entrance as a war vet, but he is an honorary one. Steve also knows he did it for a personal reason, one he feels is the most selfish he has been. For best friend, because steve can be selfish.

Man, im trying to move towards AA5 now, and work over Polly's grief because its SOO juicy. But it also makes me a bit shy, since the more AA5 and 6 develop, the more crack i made up the ship's lore LMAOO.

I am naturally reserved anyway, so it was just a matter of being given abundant praise for being quiet and "well behaved" to instill in me the habits of someone who does not take up space or obstruct anything. Ever.

I am 32 years old.

For the past 5 or 6 years, I have been actively working to unlearn those habits. To realize that quietness and agreeableness is not the end-all be-all of my existence. I feel like I've made some good progress, and I'm eager to continue tearing down unuseful habits and beliefs, and building up the skills, strength, and bravery needed to be my not perfectly well-behaved self.

But lately I've been having to use my old habits, my deeply rooted "skills" in keeping (other's) peace. And I'm having to use them a LOT. More than I ever had to as a child. And I can see the necessity for it right now (maintain living situation), but... I'm afraid.

I'm afraid I'll lose my progress.... the progress I've worked so goddamn hard for. I probably (hopefully) won't, cuz I have a couple good friends who support and encourage my individuality (thank gawd lol).

But still.

Thought x time = knowledge

Knowledge ÷ time = memory

Memory = time:knowledge:experience

Memory is past

Past is time

Thought creates time, as well as space, which creates distance

The speed is the missing variable in this equation

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Thoughts per cycle

Gotta go into cycle more. The interval, computing, mathematics, and physics of it all catch my eye.

Yall ever heard of beanie buddies? They're 20 inch versions of the classic 8 inch versions that fit in your pocket. I have started a collection of the smaller ones already and this bigger version thing is blowing my mind. Immediately started looking for one's in the bigger size that matched the beanie babies I carry around regularly. This is "big snowbearry". Was able to find all four i wanted plus some other ones that matched ones I already had or were too good to pass up (dont worry I found the matching little ones for the ones I didn't have yet :)) my partner also has a lot of beanie babies they started collecting at a younger age than i. We like to surprise each other sometimes with new ones its always very sweet. I have told them im thinking about it and want their opinions on these bigger ones picked out 3 options so far.

And I cant mention mars long awaited addition to the babies without showing, they couldn't find the perfect one. They fell in love with this one pretty instantly. This little one will be ordered first when the bank account is ready lol.

Also two other pinky themed ones that we couldnt scroll past. I have a matching polka dot one already, and i can easily get the match to the sun/rainbow bear.

Also picked out options to see lunas opinions on the shades of purple I was able to find :).