#devinetheory2

in the place of rage.

I'm In my breaking...

Most nights

I lie in wait

awake on the page.

Blood stains an uncut vein

I am wrapped in their safety net....

I would get high to get by

But there's not enough drugs

to make me forget

I haven't seen my face in days

In a daze

And it's not safe

To project

Secretly they bet against me

So many faces it makes me dizzy

But I can't wait to collect

So tired of the fake smiles and lies

Worn across the faces of death

Because I know

in my soul

that my soul

is one hell can't wait to come get

So much weight on my shoulders

Im surprised

they don't break from the stress

...So my heart breaks

And the noise it makes

sounds just like a 38

straight to the chest.

YOU.

And here you come

Like a battle cry

rallying the hounds of war

With the sound

your heart makes,

Like a bass tuned drum...

Likely to rally a thousand more

...and I've had

the worst luck with love...

But somehow I always manage

To save you some

In world full of thorns

You....

You...

A black and blue rose

in full bloom

Illuminated

When the full moon comes

...and here you come

Crafting thoughts

Into my subconscience

Cracking holes in my armor

The muse to my confidence

Casting spells of kings

To a fallen prince

That once had it all

Can still have it all again

And I've fallen

But my path

is not that

of common men

And I know I'll be alright

BecauseI've not fallen...

To much stronger winds...

And I'm thinking maybe

It gave me

the strength of Hercules

And the wisdom of Solomon

Achilies with a Medusa stare

That can see thru these hollow men...

And don't tell me about

pressure please

Especially

since losing the best of me

Wanting them to bury me

since I was 17

In the same coffin

my mom was in

Watching the dirt drop

On the top

Left me with a hard spot

On my heart

that would never soften again....

Since then

Ive poured my blood

Through the ink in my problem pen

Remember him

And how he fought through

the maliciousness

And malintentions to take advantage

And injure him

Drawing my pain in poetic

crimson collages within the

Construct of your mental vision

With Godlike technique

With unprecedented precision

Spell bound and cryptic

You take my brain

to another dimension

Casting your spells

upon anyone

with an intention to listen

With an unparalleled air of mysticism...

Cosmic stardust lost within this prism

The consequence of indecision

I didn't call because

I didnt want you to hear

the sadness in my tone

I can't let you see the madness

In my mind

As I try

to accept

the fact that

I

Am

Alone

But I won't go back

to a

bro

ke

n ho

me

I can't come over because

I cant let you smell

the bar and the cologne

All on my clothes.

The women I had with me

the night before

When you had supposedly

broken Your phone

But still

I had to hear your voice

You made your choice

But I cant move on

As try to allign myself

With the idea

That this is real.

Smoke, drink and fk the pain away

Until the memory of her face

Fades from my horizon

And my mind

is completely thrown

And made insane this way

forgets the lies and

My body is paralyzed

With your level of toxicity

Admittedly

I am not very good

with this grief

Or these memories

Searching desperately for symmetry

Trying hard not

to remember our stars

Lest the sadness within

Cripple me

Like how we would always

be together

Like a pair of dice

Or you were my puzzle

And I was your missing piece

Forever searching for paradice

A paradox behind a pair of eyes

And you've likely ended my life

When you took yours

And I'm not sure I can compare a time

Where I didnt swear Im fine

I am an unspoken paradigm

Praying that prayer of mine

Hoping that that theres a sign

A direction I can take

With someone that can relate

To elevate my mental state

To a place I can repair my mind

Always threatened

to do more

Would it be you

Wondering what did I ever

fuck with you for

Stealing food from grocery stores

To provide you more

Of what you couldnt afford

Honesty on a severe decline

And always so rare to find

Pushing through the storm

Anything to keep you warm

Remove the sheath from my sword

As I sleep in that 2 door ford

You want more

You gotta do more for it

Feeling like Hugh Jackman

In that movie swordfish

And I've been letting someone live

rent free in my mind

that can't really afford the mortgage

And I'm trying to evict

But since buying the lies

I really don't have any

money left this time

to take you to court or go to war with

Holding you accountable

just resorts to more shit

and your so called friends

can't seem to see you transform

Until you go to war or forfeit

And these whores support it

Meanwhile I'm Confused

as his muse ignores him

And I choose to light that fuse

And use to get more lit

And I take over

the natural order of things

And try to force shit

As a result my views are morbid

And I see death as the only thing

that soothes the war

But the warrior inside

Refuses to lose

I avoid the noose

Take another sip

from my bottle

of poisoned and poor choices

I let destroy him

I like that...

THAT one phrase

speaks as a picture does.

A 1000 word essay

of how I wish it was.

Like only experiencing

the good things

about an addiction...

...Until a wrist is cut

And you really can't

get a feeling

like this with drugs

I can't tell you

how she moves me

She just simply does

I know feelings this intense

are risky but...

I'm an addict

that can't break the habit

I got to have it

I can't get enough...

Until the truth burns

going down

Like the whiskey does

Alone now and it's colder

than the winter months

Nothing loves company

Quite like misery does

Till she lights my fire

And my heart lifts

And ends my darkness

As she Keeps our stars lit

With her chemistry

God like technique

And flawless agility

Got me Wondering

where she draws all this

lawless energy from.

Until the madness inside

Tells him to give up

Before her, he's never

Really been in love

He knows hes flawed

And never been enough

These thoughts haunt him

like her memory

Soft skin

Curved symmetry

Burned imagery

I long to be her infinity

1st infantry

On the front line

Do me wrong

gone after 1 time

I'll have the homies

Pour out liquor

in your memory

(Sigh)

Is to love. .

Like we've never been hurt.

To walk around scarred

Like we've never been burnt...

Having the wisdom to apply

All that we've learned

To be rejected,

Yet not deterred.

STRENGTH

Shes murdered me

With her words

About what she's endured

And how she deserves

The healed version

Unreal,

I still weild

unhealed 3rd degree burns

From her

Spoken necrosis

They can not compare

With their thousand yard stares

And myopic psychosis

But the sex hott

Until

the flesh rots

On the best spots

Undressed

broken picture

Of me on her desktop

So hard to have hope

In a world that is hopeless

It's said it comes

from those closest

And you usually own

the knife that they

open your throat with

I'm speechless

A single boat

Lost in her ocean

She's bent over me

changed her form

The storm in her eyes

Is ferocious

She thinks Im under

some kind of hypnosis

And Im on her mind?

C4 emotions

Corrosive explosive

She'll love you

and will not let go

And I cant speak

As I try to scream

from my toe tips

She pours whats left

of herself into me

And then moans

As my world turns black

And my mind loses focus

Im frozen

her embodiment explodes

But the sex hott

Until the flesh rots

On the best spots

Undressed

broken picture

Of me on her desktop

And Im lost in her dream

and I can't seem

to find my way home

Ive been thrown away

But we supposed to help

fix those that are broken

I guess I'm just supposed to

stop loving you

Because you forgot.

Ruthless plot

Love strangely twisted

A mystic you aren not.

Here's to hoping

That you find God

even though life has been hard

And the devils hands

are always near your throat

That you don't get the message too late

And you can let the fear just go

Love yourself openly.

Bravely and courageous

I guess I still believe in miracles

And when I see you smile

I still write about it

in my notebook pages....tbc

They didn't give us freedom

They just made us a bigger cage.