I think Jason is definitely the kind of boyfriend to break down from seeing your cars damage after a wreck.
Somehow, you made it out practically unscathed but by the grotesque way your car is bent and wrangled, no one would have guessed at first sight. The fear paralyzes him when he arrives, he knows heâs moving but he feels stagnant. The seconds it takes him to reach you feels like a millennia, he canât get there fast enough. And the uncertainty of your condition is unlike any fear heâs ever known- he thinks heâll just about die a second time.
But the relief that washes over him from seeing you alive shakes him so violently, his body reacts before he fully digests the sight. The sight of you wrapped delicately in the back of an ambulance, his girl. Safe, unharmed.
His body fights to crawl to you, to smother you in his worries until youâre sick of him. But the sobs that pierce through him are so unforgiving, he canât move. You hear him before you see him. Youâve heard his cries before. Nights spent locked behind closed doors- the soft sound of choked sobs bleeding from just under. That sick habit of hiding himself away, not wanting to be seen. Or the quiet sniffles towards the end of a movie with no happy ending. Quick to wipe his tears before the lights come up. But this is different. He doesnât have it within himself to hide away. His biggest fear almost came true tonight- the grief of almost losing you ruins him completely. Jason knows he should pull himself together. He knows he needs to be strong for you but tonight, heâs inconsolable.
Just short of a few feet away, grasping at anything around him, stands your sweet boy. Clutching his chest, trying to ground himself. Jay doesnât know what to do in this moment. Heâs more shaken up than you are. But the relief of being given a second chance is what gets him.
From the day Jason was left for dead, he decided miracles werenât for him. Rarely had he been shown grace, and what kindness was extended to him was just as quickly ripped away. Heâd become compliant to the seclusion that found its way into his life. Isolated behind closed doors and shadows, thinking heâs doing everyone a favor. But the ease at which you made your way into his life had thrown him off course. Patient and kind, honeyed words melting him to mush- he stood no chance against you. Before he knew it, he found home within his very own miracle.
And as if the universe were laughing at him, saying âwrong againâ, he had been given a second one.
