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Trust in God

1 For the leader; with stringed instruments. A psalm of David.

I 2 Answer me when I call, my saving God. When troubles hem me in, set me free; take pity on me, hear my prayer.

II 3 How long, O people, will you be hard of heart? Why do you love what is worthless, chase after lies? Selah 4 Know that the Lord works wonders for his faithful one; the Lord hears when I call out to him. 5 Tremble and sin no more; weep bitterly within your hearts, wail upon your beds, 6 Offer fitting sacrifices and trust in the Lord.

III 7 Many say, “May we see better times! Lord, show us the light of your face!” Selah 8 But you have given my heart more joy than they have when grain and wine abound. 9 In peace I will lie down and fall asleep, for you alone, Lord, make me secure. — Psalm 4 | New American Bible Revised Edition (NABRE) New American Bible, revised edition © 2010, 1991, 1986, 1970 Confraternity of Christian Doctrine, Inc. All Rights Reserved. Cross References: Genesis 26:22; Leviticus 25:18; Numbers 6:26; Deuteronomy 12:10; Deuteronomy 33:19; Job 7:7; Psalm 3:3-4; Psalm 6:8-9; Psalm 12:2; Psalm 37:3; Psalm 17:6; Psalm 63:6; Isaiah 9:3; Acts 14:17; Ephesians 4:26

“My God, my God, why have you abandoned me? Why so far from my call for help, from my cries of anguish? My God, I call by day, but you do not answer; by night, but I have no relief. Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One; you are the glory of Israel. In you our fathers trusted; they trusted and you rescued them. To you they cried it and they escaped; in you they trusted and were not disappointed. But I am a worm, not a man, scorned by men, despised by people. All who see me mock me; they curl their lips and jeer; they shake their heads at me: ‘He relied on the LORD-let him deliver him; if he loves him, let him rescue him.’ For you drew me forth from the womb, made me safe at my mother’s breasts. Upon you I was thrust from the womb; since my mother bore you are my God. Do no stay far from me, for trouble is near, and there is no one help.” 

-Psalms 22:2-12 NABRE

I find this describing how I feel abandoned and alone by God. I feel judged and scorned by people around me that I stand by Catholic Church. Most people I meet, have either grown up in the church and left or they complete despise the church in general. So, it’s hard for me to connect with people. Other Catholics I meet are super invested in the religion and spend a lot of time in the church, but I am private about who I am with God. That’s what religion is, your belief, your relationship with God (or whomever you believe in). Either way, I feel like I have to prove his miracles, but I’m just here. I used to be super in love with church. I was an RCIA teacher and I was an altar server. I was the best one in the church, (I was always the first requested and my pastor said so). I spent my childhood being raised by the church, so that’s why this is disheartening to me. 

Revelation 4:8

In peace I will lie down and fall asleep, for you alone, LORD, make me secure."