Not There.
One day you’ll wake up and you won’t find me there. One day you’ll wake up and the left side of the bed will be bare. I promise this wasn’t easy, I swear this wasn’t what I wanted to do. I’m sorry my love was too much for you.
Hate me if that will calm your storms. Blame me when you can’t right your wrongs. Feel what you need to feel even if they’re lies. Do what makes it real just that time can pass by.
Forget my face, forget my smile forget the kisses before we said goodnight. Look back on those times where we used to scream and fight. You’d rush to the door and leave me crying through the night. Forget my voice, forget my laughter, forget how my touch was a sweet disaster. Look back on those times when reality kicked in when you said you couldn’t love me right. How much I’d blame myself, then excuse yourself that it was out of spite.
Don’t come looking for me don’t come asking why. I suffered a thousand wars but now my tears run dry. Call my a coward call me any nouns you’d like. Call me whatever your heart desires to lead me out of your life. If there’s one thing I’m sorry is that I’m leaving without saying goodbye. I’m sorry I don’t have the strength to look into your eyes.
That day has come where you won’t find me there. No more good morning or leaving your black coffee on your dusty wooden chair.
TJP
