I didn’t do anything too much

Magic doesn’t choose to be magic

It’s an effect without a cause 

Snuggling up against each other

Falling asleep on his chest

Arms that hold me

Noses touching

Breathing in the smell of his neck

Laughing at stupid jokes

Kissing…

You just can’t do those things with yourself. However content you are by yourself. You just can’t. And now he left again..

After traveling for 10 days and reading 2 Paulo Coelho books I came to realize at least 2 things I want in my life for sure: a little farm with a few animals to love (in a country where it's most of the time +30°C) and that I would rather have sauna in my backyard then a pool, just to feel warm at cold nights. Also that I want a lover that sticks on my skin 24/7 and loves the feeling of our sweat melting and pouring into each other. Yes, I'd like that.

I’m not about to play games. I don’t need anybody. And if I do need someone, it’s someone who adds value to my life. Someone you can rely on, someone who’s gonna be there for you through thick and thin, someone who you can build a life with. That’s the only thing I need. So why invest time in anything other than that?