#lonlieness

Am I crazy? How can you be so secure in your social sphere that you can just refuse attention like that? If someone tells me they don’t want to be around me right then… then there goes my day. I usually don’t have a backup or another person to call. Human interaction for me is all or nothing…

And I’d drop everything for someone who wanted me around. I’ve done it before. People ask for me, and I’m there. And the moment I ask for them…

The answer is just “no”.

The freaks

The aliens in human skin

You may not ever feel accepted

You may not ever be accepted

But one thing is for certain is you will still be here.

You will get out of your bed

You will comb your hair, with your crooked part

And brush your crooked teeth

And tie your dirty shoes the wrong way

And carry on about you day

You will feel the need to hide yourself

To make yourself smaller

Less weird

Less you

But dear weird kid,

Don’t do that.

Do not change to make the world comfortable.

I want to make new friends here, but I have this fear that if I go up to a group to try and join them, I feel like I might be shunned. I feel like I have all of my life. Not only do I feel like I might be excluded because of my personality, but now because of my skin color.