#light rant

I don't know how the hell to manage this I've never dealt with it???

It's been months I've been here for months but very bad episode rn

Even if you've never actually physically been to the place, it's such a strong longing that doesn't go away. If anything it gets stronger over time the longer you're in some town or country you're not used to

I was lucky enough to get to see Hadestown on broadway the other night and it was AMAZING, but my favorite song (our lady of the underground) was completely ruined by the man next to me being on his phone for the ENTIRE. FUCKING. THING. he also took a photo with flash, and had his phone on during the (QUIET, DARK, SUSPENSEFUL) ending the moment there was a second of stillness.

this is a friendly reminder (from someone who’s been onstage, in audiences, and in tech) that everyone who’s there worked really fucking hard to get there, be it talent or the expensive tickets. this also isn’t just a thing you can easily see again like if we were in a movie theater. if you miss it, you need to watch either an illegal recording or watch the entire show again.

SO!

when we say phone off and away, phone goes OFF and AWAY. INTO the bag, silent mode ON, notifications OFF. if you must use your phone step out into the lobby. no photos, esp flash photography, and if you do not abide by these rules myself and the phantoms of these operas will feed your bones to the understudies.

"I wanna see more feminine female characters!"

"Let women be feminine!"

"Let women fall in love!"

Can the label im looking for just fall into my lap.

Do i need to take out some catnip to lure it out.

Do i need to perform a trick first. CMON. JUST HELPRHFIDJRJFJDNAAAAAAA

Im not someone who is usually concerned about labels, tbh😭 if i know a label for myself? Cool!

If i dont? I know who i am, and i can describe it!

BUT THIS. THISSSS

Any joyous anticipation just gets sucked out of me, complements mean nothing if it's just to steal money from me.

But on the bright side Mad Magic has 15 kudos! And those kudos give me reason to keep writing.

To anyone who has apricated my story thank you, I never really thought I would be doing something like this but it's been a blast and has certainly made my life a little more colorful.