#juliakin

I'm scared of Andrew, I really am, I was in source, I was in my canon, and I still am. If anything more so after finding out what he was really like and the kind of person he was. I feel bad for his screwed up childhood and how he never got a chance to even be a kid, how he was treated and what not, just how bad he and Ashley had it growing up, but he still scares me. Yet I miss him and I don't know why because I don't want to miss this man. He wasn't a good person. But I miss him. Part of me wants to see him again but the more reasonable part of me really doesn't. I did love Andrew even if he never loved me, but I was also scared of him. He makes me very uncomfortable and freaked out but I miss him regardless even though I don't want to see him again. He's like a worse version of Jax, but at least Jax was upfront about his intentions and how much he hated me. I hate both of them. At least I wasn't romantically involved with Jax but he scared me just like Andrew did, but I knew I was scared of Jax, I didn't know I was scared of Andrew until later. What's up with me and toxic men? 😞

hi I'm a Julia looking for my Magnus or my dad or really anyone. um? I had long dark brown hair that I kept in a messy braid on the righ side of my shoulder, and green eyes, and a lot of freckles do if it sounds familiar to any one yeah!

(vent, i suppose! Though any words returned are lovely!) I really wish that Julia was more than some tragic backstory. I know all about myself, and who I am as I am now, and seeing me get reduced to a sad memory is.... Reductive, to say the least. I don't want to be some idealized woman in a sad Lost Lenore narrative.

To Magnus: it's Julia! I'm doing a-okay. I understand that people can change, especially in appearance, but that doesn't make us unrecognizable. As long as you know who you are, I'll know too.

THROWING UP THROWING UP OV MY GOD I JUST REMEMBERED HIM KISSINV ME WHILST BLOODY TYING MY HAIR UP HIMSWLF SO ID LOOK MORE LIKE ASHLEY (ashley is his little sister btw!!!)

hi uh

hm? what was that? you’d do it **all** again, you say? alright. thanks for the confirmation. now i know where i stand.