#johnny thoughts

i must know what he would be like in ibiza. i just know this man would go feral. maybe he’s there with reader and the rest of the liars, maybe some friends from school, probably as an 18th birthday gift (the fire did NOT happen). he would definitely make it all about him, as he should, and spend all day in the foam parties

hhahaha this is so dumb lmk your thoughts!!

I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT "Foam party! like Ibiza 🤩"

and no omg this is not dumb at all, keep these thoughts coming, they're amazing

Oh my God do NOT let Johnny go to Ibiza ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

that man would come back addicted to substances we didn't even know existed and then he'd have to go to the same group therapy as Carrie in rehab 😭😭😭😭😭

Ibiza is DEFINITELY one of Johnny's dream places to go and brings it up at every chance. The gift of a trip wasn't at all a shock to him because for the last 2 years he's been dry begging for it like "The drinking age is 18 in Ibiz- I mean Spain. Did you know that?" "I'd really love to go to the Mediterranean Sea, think it's really cool" "And when we go to Ibiza for my 18thhhhh......." LIKE EVERYONE AND THEIR MOTHER KNEW HE WANTED TO GO.

The "surprise" of it for his birthday is less a surprise and more he's sitting through every other gift like "Okay, so when my big present?"

He's still ecstatic though

HE 👏🏼 IS 👏🏼 THE 👏🏼 MAIN 👏🏼 CHARACTER 👏🏼

He's in every space like he owns it and he might as well

After the week is up, everyone is flat, never more tired, except Johnny

Hahaha 150%

The strongest worded text messages about how he should have waited on him to go with him. How he could have helped him. How they could have helped each other.

Could you imagine how easily Ten and WinWin would have taken to the activity? Like they 100% have already done it. Like no question. Their strength is ridiculous. Johnny is crazy strong too but pole dancing takes like a different kind of strength that he will have to grow accustom to.

Again, he did sooooo well and learned SO quickly.

After about an hour of watching Robby putting his class through their drills, I need a break. My head is pounding...and after the night I had...I just wanna go back to my office, prop my feet up on the desk and get some sleep. Every time I close my eyes I see hers... accusing me... making me feel like the jerk I know I am...and I truly am that jerk.

I cross my fingers and look in the mini fridge for one of my Coors...and I wouldn't even care if it was from last year. Nope... bottles and bottles of water and this vitamin water bullshit and someone's juice box...gimme a break. *grabs water and puts the cold condensation to my forehead and flops down in my seat*

Why didn't you just tell her you were back, Lawrence...you know hindsight is 20/20 big time...but you were just trying to stop one hand grenade from going off without thinking of the after shocks...(she could have helped you...she would have...I know it, asshole... don't you think I know that?)

Now you've gone and made a bigger mess....you got no girl...the problem with Diaz and Robby isn't fixed and possibly worse. You probably money tanked your bar...Yep...you ain't never been one for problem solving, dude...just creating more shit to deal with.

I think about Ali then...what we talked about at the beach... what we talked about at the country club...how much sense she always made...how much she understood me when no one else did. I think about the hell I put her through and the no nonsense way she deals with my bullshit.

It's her as well as my old gang that truly know the Johnny Lawrence I am...I wish I could just say 'fuck it' and hang out with the guys... especially Bobby who...even though he was a bastard to me the other day, I know he was doing it for my own good...and he made an impact...on THAT situation...(still have a long way to go with Robby...but the temporary cease fire has been great)

I close my eyes and again... thoughts of her start up almost instantly...I don't know what's it gonna take...but I know this shit is hard...I can't even wear myself out or put my body through pain to push her out of my head...and him. *I groan at the thought of his hands on her and shake my head so vigorously I almost fall out of my chair*

You're an IDIOT...and you just gave her to him... I see her smiling at him...the smile that belongs to me...and I see her face as she tells me she won't come after me anymore...that she won't waste her time...* I wince and toss the bottle of untouched water in the trash... half satisfied of the *THUNK* it makes when I made the shot...who cares...*

I lean back and scrub my hands over my eyes...how do I make this all right?? Life isn't so easy anymore...so much has changed and I just can't *check out* I gotta fight for what I want...and all that I want is wrapped up in a maddeningly- frustrating-driving-me- nuts-body with the power to wrap me around her pinkie with a single look. Her kisses still felt on my skin... her touch...the way I've held her but respected her enough to not go all the way when I know I should have...I would have done ANYTHING she wanted to prove to her...I guess I still didn't listen to what she wanted... again... you're an idiot. Just forget it...let it go. Yeah...we know that ain't gonna happen.

"Lord...beer me strength..."