Strangers Now, Friends Before
Ok, so... this was @jantomweek Day 5Â âChildhood friendsâ...
Which apparently I finished AND NEVER POSTED????
If this was posted someone send me the link and Iâll delete this one.
I found it while organizing Tumblr and my own files to see if something got lost on the rambles of writing (and yes, there are a few) but i didnât expect to have a whole thing in my files and never had posted????
Anyways, here it is, later as ever but oh well. I hope you guys like!
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Strangers Now, Friends Before
Tom didnât need much to be happy. A good sleep, his comforter, a cozy place to relax and just do nothing. It wasnât asking much and it wasnât that all complicated.
So right then and there he was wondering how such thing seemed so freaking impossible as he stared at his best friend on the bars across the police district in a separate prison than his.
âThis is your fault.â
âOh excuse me, if I cared enough to get in a fight while trying to help you.â
âI told you I was fine.â
âYeah, sure.â He sighed resting his back on the bars refusing to look at her, âWhatever.â
There was a few minutes of silence, both refusing to look at the other or talk about the fight. On his side he knew why he was avoiding, it wasnât his fight in first place. He wasnât even supposed to get into it or knock the guy unconscious, it was Janna thing and she was the one who should solve, but what anyone expected him to do when the guy grabbed her arm and tried to force her inside the car to do whatever?!
At same time he knew it was none of his business. Not when they havenât talked to each other in five years. It wasnât intentional, but as they grew they began to hang out with different people and have different interests. And then when they least expected they had nothing to talk about. He often stared at her contact over social media and thought on talking to her again, but awkwardness always had got the best of him and he gave up.
A few hours later a police officer came and opened the gates for his and her cell right after, âOk, you two are clean. The witnesses around proved that you were only defending your friend and that he was indeed trying something on her.â The officer guided them through corridors out the cells and to the police department âThe exams gave out the high level of alcohol in his blood, and he is filed by violence against women in the past. Some time in jail for trying to abuse a minor will give him a little reminder after he wake up.â The officer pointed out two seats for them âBut next time, please donât try dating a guy much older than you. For your safety, girl.â
âI didnât know he was that old,â Janna finally spoke âI actually went to break up with him in my friend place since she was scared of his reaction. I thought he was a jerk on our age, I didnât know he was over his twenties. I had a spray and a taser I thought it would be enough to make him leave me alone in worst scenarioâ She hugged herself and shivered âI didnât think he would follow me on my way home after recovering.â
Tom put a hand on her shoulder to show support, but as she tensed he realized it might not been the best opinion and recoiled.
âWell, since youâre older you can leave. She will have to wait for her parents.â
âI will wait with her, if thatâs not a problem.â
âIf she doesnât bother either, itâs up to youâ
Janna didnât said anything as he sat beside her, not even when her parents arrived and decided to file the case. Or when they asked Tom to deliver her to their home since there were still some documents to sign and would take time for those and for their lawyer to get there. Not even when he put his jacket on her since she was shivering from late night cold air. The walk back home was just as silent.
âWhy did you care even?â Janna suddenly spoke a few quarters away from their home.
âBecause you are my friend and he was hurting you.â
âAre we friends even?â
Tom frowned, âOf course⌠We are distant, but I never considered you less than a friend.â
âDoesnât feel like.â She replied quietly.
Tom sighed looking at her âWhat is this about?â
âThis is about you getting into my life. I appreciate, but I donât understand.â
âWhat part of âI saw you in danger and reactedâ is hard for you to get?â
âThe part in which I had got in worse and you didnât care.â
He tried to defend himself âIf I knewâŚâ
âYou should, it were your friends who got me on it.â Tom stopped walking to look at her back, hoping she would say it was a lie, but Janna kept walking without looking back âI thought you gave the order. I guess I was wrong about that at least.â
âI never⌠I would neverâŚâ He returned to walk until he was in front of her and held her shoulders so she stopped walking, âJanna, believe me, I had no idea⌠Iâm sorry.â
Janna took a step back to be away from his touch and then continued to walk avoiding him, âHaving them being jerks wasnât worse than having your best friend turning his back on me and being just as cold.â
âThatâs not how-â
âThen tell me why,â Janna said suddenly turning around and stopped walking to stare at his eyes âWhatâs your excuse for being distant?â
Tom gulped and tried to find the words to express himself âI⌠didnât know how to deal with it.â
âWith what?â
âWith you, ok? I just⌠Couldnât find a way to talk to you again without being weird.â
Janna frowned and gave him back his jacket, âKeep it, I can go home from here.â
âJanna!â Tom called when she started to walk and had to once again hold her so she wouldnât escape, âLook, I swear I-â
âSave it.â Janna said taking his hands away from her. âYou didnât know who to deal with me after knowing about my crush on you? You could have said you needed time or whatever. But what I wonât forget is how you walked away from my life without ever looking back right after you ex girlfriend had exposed me to the whole school out of pure jealousy.â
âWhy do you think I broke up in first place?!â
âWell, why didnât come talk to me then?â Janna replied annoyed âI could have take my time away and give you space and whatever more you need⌠You just ignored me for years and suddenly come as a hero and⌠What now?!â
âI⌠Weâll figure out, ok?â
Janna turned around and walked back to her home, just a few more houses ahead. This time without complaining of his company. Tom kept close to her, a bit afraid she would try running away any minute. He put his jacket above her shoulders again, holding it in there.
When they got in her house, Janna put her keys on the door and unlocked, but instead of walking inside, she decided to turn to him and play with the key chains. Tom knew a signal of unwanted departure, so he took a step and stood closer, caressing her arms above his jacket.
âDid he hurt you?â
She shook her head, âMostly when he grabbed my arm, it stings a bit and probably will be a bit purple tomorrow but thatâs it.â
He hesitated for a moment, âAre you ok?â
âYeah,â she shrugged âjust a bit shaken.â
âDo you want me to stay until your parents arrive? Would make you feel safe?â
âI donât know⌠You got your stuff to do too.â
âDonât worry about it, just tell me what you want.â
Janna sighed and rested her forehead on his chest whispering, âI want to know why you walked away in first place, and why youâre back.â
Tom looked beyond her head, to the little white flowers in her garden âIt was stupid of me⌠Iâm sorry. I donât even⌠I guess I didnât know how to deal with your feelingsâ he replied finally, âI didnât know how to bring it up or how to come close after the whole fiasco my ex did⌠I was afraid I would hurt you even more or people would mess with you. It was wrong of me to leave you like that⌠Iâm sorry.â
Janna shivered a bit and moved her hand, was she crying? âWhy youâre back then? Why now?â
âBecause I didnât want to walk away in first place.â He confessed, âBut I did, and you moved on and looked happy with your girlfriend and I thought⌠It was too late, that I had no right in stepping in your life and messing with your happiness. And I wish I didnât stepped back like this but⌠itâs how things happened.â
He was caressing her back in circles when she sniffed and stood back, cleaning her face with her hand of the remaining tears and took a deep breath. âWhat made you so scared that I had a crush on you?â
âBecause I didnât know how to treat you right.â Tom laughed a bit at that âI always treated you like a stupid jerk and said stupid stuff. I didnât know how to be other way with you⌠I still donât. I couldnât risk hurting you because Iâm a idiot.â
âAnd ended up hurting a lot more.â
âYeah⌠Iâm really sorry about that.â
Janna touched his shirt, caressing the fabric gently and his chest as consequence âYou know why I liked you in first place?â
âWhy?â He asked curious.
âBecause you were real.â She replied suddenly very interested in the stamp of his shirt âYou didnât look like a fairy tale or too good to be true. You were just what youâre to everyone else, thereâs no difference. You werenât like a dream or enchanted, but thatâs what made you so great and special for me since we were kids. You didnât mind if I was a girl or a boy who wanted to play pirates, and you didnât care when I took interest in both boys and girls⌠You were real and thatâs all I wanted.â
âI didnât know.â
âYou couldnât. We never talked about itâ she replied recoiling her hand.
They stood in silent for a minute, letting the night air hung on them and the sounds of night bring the calm around them for finally solving everything after so many years of yearning and longing a solution that none tried to take the step to actually solve.
The red haired boy hugged her and she let her face rest against his chest, taking profit of his warmth by pulling his jacket closer and nuzzling her face gently against his body. He didnât mind, since he took profit by holding her close to rest his chin on her head (wow, he could actually do that now that he was taller), his arms resting around her gently, so she could pull away whenever she felt like.
âTom?â Janna suddenly said.
âYeah?â He replied nuzzling her hair gently without even noticing his own actions.
âAs much as I hated myself for this along the years⌠It hasnât changed.â
She stepped back just enough to look at his face, and Tom looked at her eyes a bit confused âWhat?â
âThe only difference is that Iâm no longer 11 having a silly crush on a older boy whoâs 14⌠Iâm older, so are you. And I despised I didnât move on completely, there were always the thought of you in the back of my mind no matter how much I tried to fool myself.â Janna took a breath before confessing for once, âThings are still the same. I still like you just as much I liked you thenâŚâ She gulped looking down before looking at his face again âWhat do we do now?â
Tom looked at her shocked for a moment, then looked right at her lips and her face. He could feel her trusting his actions right then and there. To either turn her down or take the chance, she wanted to have a conclusion, to turn the page over or write it together.
He decided to write with her.
It was immediate reaction once he made the decision. His hands left her hips to cup her face and bring her closer, smashing his lips on hers eagerly. Eyes closing just mere seconds after hers. Janna lifted her arms to wrap around his neck, dropping his jacket in the process and kissed him back with hunger, her fingers passing on his hair caressing his scalp, her lips continued glued to his moving a bit tipsy like a first kiss and with too much longing for them to control or think on slowing down to adjust. His hands rested on her hips holding her close to him as before.
It took a few minutes for them to let the years of distance and unnoticed longing to vanish, even after slowing down and separating, both continued to share little kisses, hesitating to separate and stop the moment. Her hand rested on his chest as the other cupped his cheek.
âItâs lateâ she said between kisses, âI should get in.â
âAnd itâs cold⌠you should.â
And still none of them found the will to move out the embrace or stop the kisses for another five minutes.
âI can stay if you want.â He said finally, now tracing his kisses along her face, as apologies for being away for so long when he wanted that just as much as she did.
She nodded slightly to his suggestion, âOk⌠I do like thatâŚâ she sighed when he kissed her forehead.
Sharing one more kiss, a bit longer than the others, Janna finally opened the door to her house and let him in as she closed the door again behind her. She went to turn the lights on and Tom found himself in a familiar place with few differences of walls and decorations.
âJust⌠to be sure,â She said resting her back against the wooden door âwhere do we stand?â
Tom looked back at the door, feeling the hesitation in her voice. It was comprehensive, he was a jerk in those years of distance and leaving her hanging without a âyesâ or ânoâ during five years didnât do well. He closed the distance between them and held her hand.
âWe are together. Iâm not leaving this time, Janna.â
He rested his forehead on hers looking into her eyes for a moment. She took her time to let the statement settle in her and smiled at him mischievously as he remembered she always did.
âYou better not. Iâm not going to give you chances to.â
He smirked, âThereâs the Janna I know.â
âShut upâ she rolled her eyes still smiling before wrapping her arms on his neck again pulling him down to her for more kisses.
When her parents got home, they smiled at the two of them cuddling together with blankets and pillows like they used to do when they were younger. Her father turned the lights off and let them sleep, relieved they finally had solved things out. As the lights turned down, Tom held Janna closer, cradling her head against his chest and she nuzzled his chest adjusting to hold him close as they continued to dream.















