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"A is still around, yes! But A can lose traits or parts of themself too."

"B will usually absorb, hold, or process the trauma instead of A, since A was unable to."

"A likely loses memories of the trauma, or becomes heavily dissociated from it."

"The loss of memories can end up be(ing) more than just the trauma too. Sometimes, things associated with the trauma are lost (too). A and B are also likely very similar, at least at first. (B might even think they're A.)"

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"Because of the loss of memories, A's personality may change slightly too. (Especially if the lost memories were defining to A in some way.)"

"This can all be very distressing for both A and B."

"And yes, not being able to accept trauma will/can cause splits like this!"

"I use *realize instead of accept though! Mainly since that's what's used in textbooks."

[*Realize] "The moment of becoming aware or understanding something fully."

"If one is unable to realize, accept, confront, or otherwise cope with a trauma, A -> B splitting can occur."

(Anon asks) "Your most recent post got me curious. what are introjects like in your system?"

"Well it's actually p' complicated!"

"For one, it depends a lot (on) how we split."

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"For us there's a few kinds." "One kind being..." "A -> B! Which describes when A was unable to realize past trauma, leading to them splitting B. (This is how I formed)."

"And another kind being No Space. This is when new trauma occurs, and nobody is able to integrate it. This causes a new alter to be formed to handle it. (This is how most of us form nowadays)."

(Answered by Zay :3)

"I'm just happy to be here tbh."

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"For now, we'll just be using these two."

"Introjection also depends on how long it takes to form, and Elaboration afterwards."

"If an alter takes longer to form, it's more likely for them to absorb traits from outside media."

"Aka, introject! but obv(iously), alters can be introjected without long formation."

"A lot of the time, this happens w/alters who split due to there being no space."

"The system needs someone who can handle something it can't."

"So when something or someone had been observed who seems stronger..."

"The brain tries to introject that strength into a new part."

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"When it comes to how Connected to Source we are, and how Much We Act Like Source depends on the same info (given) above."

"Introjects split from No Space are more likely more connected to source. Mainly because the brain needs them to be as Them as possible to handle the trauma (that it couldn't)."

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"Introjects who take awhile to form are less likely to be connected (to) or Act Like source. (Like me)."

"Usually because the traits were slowly picked up as seen when necessary, instead of desperately poured upon quickly."

"Obviously this isn't always the case, (nothing is)."

"Anyways, when it comes to A -> B, the least introjects occur. A was already being used as a building block, and the past trauma is Likely somewhat integrated already. As well as the fact the threat is no longer immediate, making it less dire (even if it doesn't feel like it)."

"Once again, not always the case."

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Q: Why did you make this blog?

A: I carry a lot of embarrassment and shame around my disorder. This blog was an idea encouraged by our therapist in hopes of finding community and positivity. I really want to be less ashamed about this disorder, as I can't even bring myself to talk to my closest friends about it. This blog is here both as an outlet for us to be ourselves and for me to feel less horrible about all of this.

TLDR: I want to be less embarrassed, and to find community. Therapist encouraged the blog.

Q: "Professionally recognized DID"?

A: Professionally recognized is a term we use in replacement of medically recognized as we see it as more fitting. We are not diagnosed and I don't want to accidentally imply we are.

Simply put, our therapist and psychiatrist both seem to agree we experience some form of multiplicity.

TLDR: Therapist + psychiatrist both agree, but it's not official/on paper.

Q: You're not diagnosed? Why?

A: As of now, we do not wish to seek a diagnosis for OSDDID. Such a disorder being on our medical record seems much more risky than not. First off, we are trying to immigrate and have heard that certain diagnoses will affect immigration, I don't want to hurt my chances of escaping where I live. As well as, while we are an adult, we do not support ourselves. Our parents would discover the diagnosis regardless of if we want them to (yes, we know theres privacy regulations in place for medical records. It really doesn't matter).

We have a trauma disorder for a reason. Please understand why that might not be the best for us. Perhaps in the future, we will, though.

TLDR: It's currently dangerous for us to get a diagnosis like this.

Q: How do you know you have P-DID?

A: We don't! I find it important to note that we can be wrong. We don't know if we have P-DID, DID, OSDD, etc. We really won't know until we get a proper diagnosis and/or proper screenings & assessments (we have had assessments in the past, but they weren't inherently for DID, only for our other diagnosis. Although I think we did get tested at some point? I'd need to contact my psychiatrist for that information). We, as of now, are only going off what we have discussed with our therapist and psychiatrist, alongside our own education and experiences (we are currently in college to make a pathway towards a career in therapy/counseling. Due to this, we have very fortunate opportunities to further our education and understandings of both ourselves and those around us).

All we do know for certain is that we experience severe disassociation, identity disturbances, memory loss, and what seems to be severe trauma (I don't really remember it all, and apparently, some happened pre-verbal, so idfk man).

TLDR: I don't know and won't until I get an actual diagnosis. I can only go off of the information I have currently.

Q: Are you planning on recovery or...

Absolutely, our disorders are hell on earth, and the sooner gone/made less shitty, the better. Still debating between final fusion and functional/healthy multiplicity. For healthy multiplicity, I think I'd only want one other alter to stay separate, two others at maximum. We used to have a major problem with splitting too much too often (likely a result of living in a high stress environment). I think it's calmed now, although I'm unsure. We've had lots of fusion between dissociative parts as of late (which is both good and bad in its own ways, since this hasn't been done in the most healthy of ways). Healing is slow, but I like to think that one step forward and two steps back only means I'll atleast know how to take the next two steps with ease. Progress is progress.

TLDR: Yes. Obviously.

Q: Why do you use both "we" and "I"?

A: We use "I" when referring to an individual thought, memory, emotion, etc, that applies to me specifically and not the whole(or majority) of the system. We use "we" when referring to general things, or widely known/accepted ideas, memories, etc, or just us as a whole.

TLDR: We = general, I = personal.

Q: Why are you so "introject-heavy"?

A: While it seems to be uncommon or rare, we are! I also, for once, may have a real answer to this. Growing up, ever since we started forming memories properly (and for reasons I don't understand), we've been creating OCs (original chatacters) as a coping mechanism. Disassociation was our main form of survival to get through traumatic situations, and usually, we did so with creating fictional characters.

If you wanted my guess? Since our brain already used fictional characters as a coping mechanism, our brain further applied the mechanism to what it decided we needed to "survive." Us having most of our alters be fictional characters or characters we made ourselves that got introjected makes a lot of sense. Our *only* safe space growing up was books and shows, which obviously centered around fictional characters. School and home life were both hostile, so we surrounded ourselves with imaginary things. Our only escape at the time was fiction.

Also, a note, introjects (be it fictives or not), are not the character, person, or thing that they represent. Introjects are simply alters that, when splitting, had absorbed traits from something external (such ad loved ones, characters, abusers, etc.) People who are not systems introject all the time, most commonly from loved ones. An example being when you start clicking with one of your friend and start subconsciously copying their mannerisms and personality traits. You can introject parts of anything into yourself subconsciously, fictional or not. It's incredibly normal! Introjects in systems are just more extreme cases of it.

TLDR: Brain has a weird ass coping mechanism and I don't know why it's there. Fiction was the only escape we had. + introjects aren't actual characters, just an alter that... introjected traits.

Boundaries

- Please don't bring NSFW content to this blog, this includes overtly suggestive content, gore, etc.

- Syscourse is unwanted here, I don't care enough to participate and have more things to worry about. I also just straight up don't understand and do not want to. No syscourse here.

- Don't contact me after I block you. If you get blocked, it's likely for a good reason. I'm not a judge, don't try to plead your case to me.

- Discourse in general isn't wanted here, this includes ship discourse or whatever the current internet war is.

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⭐️Dove - #dubbletrubble

🍹Zay - #smoke grass die fast

🩸SLH - #SLHcore

🌺Eve - #eve needs a drink

(tags will be added if, and only if, this blog is used by litteraly any other part, which I doubt.)

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