To Make Up For the Fact That I Accidentally Posted My 10:38 p.m. Post Early, Here's Some Doodles of My OC, Yahaira.
Can't believe I had her for more than a year now. At the lowest points of my mental state last year, it felt like I had her forever (more insight under keep reading). She did look a tad bit different though. Speaking of which...
Which design do you prefer for her? (I know it just shows the hair but here's some more stuff)
Long Hair With Jacket (current design)
Short Hair With Jacket
Long Hair Without Jacket
Short Hair Without Jacket (2024 design)
Voting ended onApr 24, 2025
(I just drew these images and wrote this ~20 minutes in advance for some more authentic 10:38 p.m. vibes.)
TW! MENTAL HEALTH STUFF/SUI MENTION/ MILD FRIEND/FAMILY ISSUES? (unsure)
If you we're interacting often with my blog around the spring-fall of 2024, you may have noticed, a new set of original characters/story come around on my blog known as "I Love My Sister" (Ilms) Chronicles. You can still check it out on the MASTERPOST. Though it might've seen like some subtle, edgy story with only mild venting or something, I actually sort of BELIEVED everything I was writing, specifically in YAHAIRA'S STORY. I was fresh out of trying to escape a toxic relationship with a 19 year old girl who I met at a mental health facility in which despite us both being out of there and most likely never being able to see each other again, would constantly treat me like her little sister and just tell vent to me about disturbing things surrounding her family life or mental state. I also had hard feeling around being an only child and having trouble making friends as I was finishing up middle school and about to start high school and most of my friends are a grade below me.
I'm [un]fortunately a bit too exhausted to remember all the details, but, shit happened, I started to take all of my emotions out on my cousins to the point I contemplated harming one of them, I was turning to Reddit for help, but now I've cut contact with my cousins for both our safeties and got help and just recently graduated from therapy.
Yahaira is still definitely an alternate version of me in a way, same can go for her older sister, Mel, though she also shares traits with my slightly older cousin in being a bit of a troublemaker, but also being physically and mentally strong and a polyglot and stuff.
Yahaira's character was designed a bit more around some of my own insecurities, such as body size, some desires I had such as to get a cool haircut (hence her messy, partially dyed hair) and a bit of genuine charm I had as a kid which were my kindness and creativity.
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(Okay, it's also 10:38, Kogetai, wrap this up...)
So yeah. Kinda recycling these characters. Um...yeah...goodnight. I have officially started my next orbit around the sum :)
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ATTENTION PEOPLE WHO LIKE MY VERY MESSY, UNSCHEDULED AND UNFINISHED WRITING!!!
So I've Been Thinking About Changing ILMS'S Chronicles's name...
Die to major plot changes, and also because the name sounds kinda weird when it's not abbreviated (or maybe I'm just tired...) I've been thinking of changing the name to Displaces Sororities, but idk.
Also so you can read up before voting: ILMS Chronicles: Yahaira's story ILMS Chronicles: 4/22/** ILMS Chronicles: Out In Nature ILMS Chronicles: Watching the Sunset Cuddlebug
Should I change Ilms's name?
Yes, Change it to Displaces Sororities
No. Keep it.
Yeah, but maybe another name (suggestions welcome)
(BUT IT'S GETTING HARDER CUZ OF COMMISSION BOTS/POSSIBLE SCAMS. IF YOU ARE REAL PEOPLE PLZ GET IT IN YOUR HEAD THAT NO I'M NOT TAKING COMMISIONS!!!!!! YOU WILL BE BLOCKED IMMEDIATELY /SRS /TH)
Sorry for that rant. I just gotta let that out...
(Little dialogue/announcement under "Keep Reading" TW: Unsettling)
"I miss having to pretend my pillow...is you, Mel..."
"*Trapped in a mental hospital noises*"
Due to being in a better mental state, I will be changing the ilms story a little, so YAHAIRA'S STORY is mostly still canon, EXCEPT FOR THE ENDING. For a long time, she's been a self-insert vent/trauma oc, like how my gray child Melody from my story Epic Club was, but now that I'm better, I'd like her to deviate a bit from my memories and have her own unique story to tell. It's still heavily inspired off of childhood trauma, memories and dark thoughts I had, just in a less direct and more fantasy manner.
Hope you guys understand and respect my decision. I know how in some earlier posts I mentioned how Yahaira is supposed to a self insert but now I’m just ready to make her an actual character. I'm also writing this late at night so sorry if this is a bit incomprehensible.
A quick insight to how the story is changed: Instead of Yahaira become me in a dream, her soul instead fuses with a guardian angel causing the illusion of a new life as a new "normal" human in the form of a dream. It isn't until one fateful day the two finally split. The guardian angel convinces Yahaira that her sister is trapped in a house up in Sacramento (well, dream universe Sacramento) and when the two reunite, they'll return to the real world and Mel will be back home. With Yahaira gullible as always, they set foot on a journey supposedly to find her, all to figure out that what the guardian angel promised wasn't exactly what it seemed. Perhaps the guardian angel, while fused into the body of a mortal child got to comfortable being human and to used to feeling pain, sadness, loneliness, vengeance...
P.S. Here a little thing I did so you guys (my mom) can tell my two Melody characters apart besides nicknames!
BEHOLD: MIDDLE NAMES!!
Epic Club Melody's full name is Melody REN Cohen
I Love My Sister Chronicles (ILMS For short cuz the first one sounds weird) Melody's name is Melody "Mel" Elaine Schneider
(Please read tags after; Reason for name change HERE. May YAHAIRA'S STORY soon to fit the new plot and therefore explain the new name more.)
My full name is Yahaira Sophie Schneider. I like my name, I wish I could say the same for my sister, Mel. Mainly with her middle name.
She always lies and says her middle name is "Elaine", but that's not true. That was gonna be my cousin Darla's middle name before it changed to "Aveline".
Mel's real middle name is "Elsuki". I don't know what it means. Mel doesn't like it because no one can pronounce it, but I can. Also, at least you don't have to tell people your middle name that much, and I know what it's like for people not knowing how to pronounce my first name, like my grandma, so she uses my middle name.
Elsuki seems like a cool name, though it reminds me of two different people sometimes. On one hand, it seems like a super cool, strong, fierce yet mischievous girl name and on the other, it seems like a loving yet shy, sad girl name who writes about cartoon characters online.
My mom told me that names have meaning. Mel is short for her real name, Melody and my name means precious, but I also saw some websites saying that it means to shine, so I don't know, and my middle name, Sophie means wisdom.
"Shining precious wisdom"
I don't know the meaning of Elsuki. I think my mom just made it up at this point, but I'll have to ask her.
Darla means darling and Aveline seems to have many meanings and I don't know which one my tia chose!!! I'll ask when we see her again, or maybe I'll call her.
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I hope I can at least find the meaning of Mel's name. I'll write it down for her in a card as a gift for when she comes back from the mental hospital...after all...it's like second nature that...
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Original Character: Mel Schneider (ILMS Chronicles; more info on the MASTERPOST)
I originally started working on her last summer but took a long break and only got back to recreating her a few weeks ago. (Heck, even the original image can be considered “old” now as my art style has evolved drastically. She’s 100% hand stitched by me and my mom (she helped with the arms) and I know it sucks ass but I’m still proud of myself.
Keep reading for some backstory! (TW: Mental Health)
It’s been a bit of a passion project that I started last summer when my mental health wasn’t doing so great and I started having irrational thoughts about myself and the world just being an endless nightmare. I also started to think about my unborn older sibling too. After making drawings predicting what she would look like, I wanted to make something more three dimensional and able to carry, talk to, hug and cry in. I was super into plushie making around that time so I watched some plushie making tutorials, grabbed some supplies and got to work.
I don’t know what happened (maybe it was due to summer ending and life getting super busy again) but I stopped working of her for half a year. It did give me some time for my mental health to recover, but I still wanted to finish making what could’ve been someone living…
I have know idea if this is sad of pathetic of both but I couldn't care less. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just wanna say that I made cool plushie with an backstory :)
To cope with the hours of sleep I'm losing. I'm just gonna write some cryptic shit based off of some that happened a couple nights ago. (besides being partially suffocated by one of my nostrils...)
This is canon to ILMS btw because yes.
TW For "I'm gonna write whatever but there may be some stuff related to unreality."
It's been quite a few months since I have made my philosophical breakthrough of this world being a mere dream. I've been coping. I promise.
I sometimes wear earplugs at night to help reduce the noise of the outside world, though not necessarily for that reason...
The earplugs helped with the sensory issues, but the too made there own sound. As I lay my head on the pillow, I hear the sound of static infect my brain.
There's a glow-in-the-dark sticker that rests in the middle of my computer. I woke up in the middle of the night, (not because of the nostril thing) most possibly to use the restroom and soothe my weak bladder. When I got back in bed, I heard a low buzzing noise coming from my computer. I didn't want to get back up, but I noticed the glow-in-the-dark sticker was gone. It came back the next morning, after the buzzing. My computer worked fine, and the glow-in-the-dark sticker still glowed its painted glow last night.
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If my theory were to be true, that computer was not meant to be a Windows 11 but a Windows 7, something she got as a gift...
something Yahaira got as a gift...
something I got as a gift...
The glow-in-the-dark sticker is from this dream world, as I put that on the computer, not Yahaira. Although I wouldn't think she'd mind. She loves those things. It's no wonder she would dream about it
