#illgetthere

It’s a Monday kinda workflow! 🔥 . Today is such an exciting day! Not only did Both kids & Hubby Get Out on Time Today & I actually went grocery shopping (💃🏾🕺🏽🎉🤸🏾‍♂️... too much? Lol!), but today is DAY 1 of... . 🙌🏾 100 Days to Brave challenge I’m doing, and... 🙌🏾 Our new Portion Control Fitness Support group!!! . Finally unpacked from Vegas, caught up on laundry , Working on kids science projects & Then before you know it- Schools Out 🏫 🙏🏾 ☀️ . That’s a lot to be excited about! . I’ve been glued to my computer working on all this stuff and talking back-and-forth with my newest Fit Sisters. I totally LOVE helping them get a strong start so they can crush their wellness goals and Business Goals! 👩🏾‍💻It’s THE BEST job I’ve ever had!! 💯 . Want to do this program with us? I’m still signing up a few new people today! It’s Not a diet....it’s Beyond a diet. It’s a Lifestyle! . Join us and look (and feel) AMAZING by Summer! 😎🤩😍 *check out my Instagram stories for modified workout moves to try at home. #mondayworkoutdone #betterlatethanNeva . #fatandfit #fatgirlfit #plussizedfitness #mybigbodycan #imlearning #illgetthere #blogilates #plussizedyoga #glorifyhappiness (at Northwest Houston, Houston, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/BwTO8EWFZHn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=861k1ecgy8o4

I still look at myself and see 280lbs. I still can't buy clothes. I know I've made progress but I still struggle. I'm losing weight and building muscle but all I see is that the scale isn't changing much. I'm still a work in progress. #gymflow #weightloss #mindovermatter #workinprogress #illgetthere #snapchat

After weeks of Emotional and Physical upheaval in myself and my surroundings 😳I'm ready to get back to the best work of my life - My Healthy Lifestyle. My moms house has all the snacks and my emotions about closing on a New Home got eaten. . Plus crossing into MY Chapter 37 Because of this, I’m hosting an online health accountability group that kicks off on 10/01 for anyone who’d like to transform their health with me! . Let’s do this together! I have 5 spots open for participants – drop an emoji, like this post, or message me if you’d like to learn a bit more! . . #fatandfit #fatgirlfit #plussizedfitness #mybigbodycan #imlearning #illgetthere #plussizedyoga #poppilates #igotthis #fatyoga #fitfandom #werkthatshape #stretchrevolution #getstretchy #thankfulgratefulblessed #bookworm📚 #whatareyoureadingnow #momempowerment #getfitmom #getoutofyourownwayandbeastar #buildingselfconfidence #womenbuildingbettercommunities #buildingwomenup #womenbuildingupwomen #allbodiesaregoodbodies🙌 (at Spring, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoF58fvBtTu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s3eva4o3xkdo

Let's try that again...not used to posting tall photos #illgetthere (at The Vintage Speakeasy) https://www.instagram.com/p/CnDSq7tvbCW/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I’m feeling a little low. I miss my daughter, I haven’t seen her in a couple weeks since the accident and honestly I probably could reach out a bit more. You just don't understand how painful it is to see her for a couple hours and have to leave.. or to see her on a video call for a few minutes and hear her start to cry when its time to hang up. It literally eats me alive. I feel like such a failure as a person and I don’t know why. I just feel like everyone's constantly disappointed in me and thinks I should be doing better. I care so much and deeply for the people around me, I’m generous and giving and affectionate and happy. Why is everyone so quick to tear me down.. a few in particular. Someone said to me the other day that I always jump to assume the worst. Maybe that’s true, but why? Probably because I'm so used to people walking out, and giving up on me. “people always leave” something I used to live by. I am always waiting for when the next and new is gonna walk out. I cant seem to shake that mental setting in myself for some reason.  Looking back and reflecting on my self and my ways for the last 5 months, I think I’ve come a long way.. along with a few setbacks and also a big fuck up. All things considered I do firmly believe I’ve improved myself. I just wish other people felt the same way. For some reason that’s really important to me. I will get there, the place where I want to be. I know I will. I'm with someone new and one of my favorite things about being with him is that he makes me want to be a better person, and have a better life. He’s overcome a lot in his life and it inspires me quite honestly. It reminds me that I’m one of the strongest people I know. I'm going through things right now, but I’ve been through worse. I’ve been fighting through chaos my entire life and I’m still here, fighting. I wont stop until I get the life I want. Sometimes I get distracted and veer off my path a but but I’ll always find my way back. I just need someone who can be patient with me and have enough faith in me to know my intentions are good and that I will be okay, Someone to stand by me, through the good and bad. Someone to be strong with me, not for me. Someone who wont get scared away my the chaos and embrace the success with me. Someone to pride me on my good efforts and my accomplishments. I want for a change, someone to see the good in me.. and help me feel the good in me again. 

Still moving in to the new place, can't believe it's been 6 1/2 weeks already, still not unpacked .... #neverenoughtime #illgetthere (at Haywards Bay) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDBjVEkADWR/?igshid=qqxqv1gmxrgv

So the scale went up! Darn it... unfortunately I’m unable to train for I don’t know how long. But at least I’m eating super healthy! I’m about to really crank my fitness up, next level on the diet plan. Pretty excited to go grocery shopping this week! #weightlossjourney #foodmatters #positivethoughts #positiveresults #illgetthere #scalr https://www.instagram.com/p/B9l_bhgnEwA/?igshid=1t7rnlpa9s70y