#ifairy

i always feel like when i buy it that i'm doing something wrong. that i'm being irresponsible by spending so much money on weed. i dont have a medical card because those cost a few hundred to get alone.

it's not something i can have Medicaid reimburse me for bc of scheduling =/ it fucking sucks.

i wish the money could go towards other things. and like. it *can.* i could stop buying weed and focus on whatever else I might want/need more. but. then i'd have to spend every single day dealing with this horrible full body ache at full throttle.

i hate chronic pain and how hard things are. i wish i didn't have it. i wish i could just be a casual smoker, if anything.

but the reality is, if i wasn't being paid the equivalent of $6.75 an hour, and didn't need to buy my own wheelchair outright, this wouldn't be a fucking problem. $1,000 a month isn't enough when you're disabled living in the most expensive place in the country. i cant even rent an apartment that isn't government subsidized.

i love transfem boys who feel dysphoric when people call them she/her. i love transmasc femboys who feel dysphoric about having stereotypically masculine traits.

i love femboys who are kinky or flirty. i love femboys who are asexual or aromantic.

i love femboys who go on E or T. i love femboys who get top/bottom surgeries. i love femboys who are into drag or alternative fashions like goth or lolita.

i love femboys who are cis and binary. i love femboys who have intricate queer identities and use microlabels. i love femboys who are agender or multigender. i love intersex and varsex femboys. i love transneutral femboys.

i love femboys who are sex repulsed, trauma survivors, or hypersexual. i think all of us should be allowed to be who we are without being sexualized against our will, assaulted, or otherwise dehumanized and shamed.

femboys arent a joke or fetish. we're real people. we all experience being a femboy in different ways, and what matters most is our autonomy and happiness - not other people's feelings or opinions about us!!

you can be a girl and not use she/her pronouns. you can be a guy and not use he/him pronouns. you can be nonbinary and not use whatever pronouns people expect of you at any given time. you can be any gender and use whatever pronouns you want. you can not use pronouns at all. you can use neopronouns.

hair length is often socially associated with gender but you don't have to be a certain gender to have long hair, short hair, styled hair, etc.

you can just like your hair being a certain way, and dislike it being another way. you can shave it off all because you don't want hair at all. you can make up a hairstyle of your own. you can collect wigs and have totally different hair every day. same thing with pronouns.

i am not your short king. i am not your baby. i am not innocent and pure and clueless. i am. a TRANS. INTERSEX. AND NONBINARY. ADULT. and i am NOT lucky for being born in a disabled and stigmatized body!!!!

STOP ACTING JEALOUS OF ME WHEN YOU DONT FACE ABLEISM/HEIGHTISM AND INTERSEXISM LIKE I DOO

"You cannot transition to being intersex as it is a congenital sex status that describes the way the body naturally develops. Inferring that someone can become/transition to being intersex is harmful because also implies that the reverse is true, and that those of us subjected to Intersex Genital Mutilation, medical abuse, and harm are no longer intersex. It implies that we can be "corrected" to perisex and that we can be erased. People who have neutral, nonbinary, or mixed sex transition goals/acquired anatomy can use "Altersex" instead of appropriating the intersex label."

this is the most concise explanation, but here's more:

"It is a common misconception to confuse intersex and trans experiences. We share some, but being intersex doesn't make you trans. Same as being trans does not make you intersex. However it is very much possible to have an intersex condition and be trans at the same time. For some of us this is a very painful reality when the individual got altered as an infant without consent only to realize later in life to re-alter what got forced upon them."

And as far as the "say you're intersex to avoid transphobia" thing goes:

"Not only is it inappropriate to pretend to be part of a minority group you have to be born into but it also harms us as you will misrepresent our experience, struggles, etc. and this contributes to our erasure. It is offensive and ignorant of our realities.

i wanna see more men get electrolysis because they feel happier clean shaven. i wanna see more butch women take T. i wanna see more people fuck around with binders, packers, and breast forms, just because it makes them happy.

i wanna see more cis GNC people who pursue gender affirming care. i want all intersex people to feel empowered to do whatever is right for them, regardless of what anyone else says.

and i want everyone to know that you can be cisgender and transexual, or nonbinary, or genderqueer, genderflux, etc. you can identify as nonbinary without identifying as trans if you'd like. you can be cis or trans or both or neither alongside being intersex. you can do whatever you want forever.