#idontidentify

So Luke was officially 1 year on T on Sunday the 5th of March. I was really excited for him and got him a 'birthday' cake to celebrate and show support. Luke is trying to grow his beard out which is going slow but he is getting there. And as the hairs become more he is becoming more excited about it and I think it helps with his dysphoria as well. So my thoughts: I told Luke that he is allowed to grow a full beard but that it needs to stay trimmed. This is still kinda weird for me as I never pictured dating a man, let alone one with a full beard. But on the other hand I'm also super stoked to see the hears on his face become more and starting to actually form a beard now. So yeah kinda having mixed feelings about the beard, but at least they are more good than bad. I don't know if I am the only one feeling this way, I understand that lots of trans partners maybe identifies/identified as straight and has no problem with this. But for me having identified lesbian for the last 5 years and questioning my sexuality 4 years prior to that, it's kinda weird... I have been on a journey of self discovery. And yes, I know that's different than the trans journey of self discovery, but I genuinely feel like I have changed. I know I might have said this before, but just when Luke came out he asked me if I would have dated him if I met him as male, and my quick response was 'probably not'... If he asked me that now my answer would be that I would be open to it. I have changed from a strictly lesbian identifying woman to a more open minded person. I won't identify myself as bisexual, but I'm not sure if pansexual is the right term either, so while I'm figuring that out I will just identify as queer. Being with Luke has really changed the way I see the world and the trans community. I never thought about the T in LGBTQ+ much before he came out as trans. I knew it existed but I was not informed of what it actually means and the emotional and physical struggles that goes with it. I have also come to realise that the T in the LGBTQ+ is a very important part of our community and that we should show our support for them more and not just the letter we identify with. If you have had simular thoughts or experiences please feel free to share them with me, I would like to hear from you. #ftm #f2m #transpartner #translove #beard #transbeard #LGBT #LGBTQ #queer #idontidentify