I now finally am on a type of (uninterrupted) birth control that works for me and it's helping me a lot with my period pain - also, I'm an adult now, I take it consensually and am aware of the potential side effects - but damn. I had so much side effects with the first couple of pills I was put on too, they hurt me in so much ways, made my body feel strange and different (maybe cause that was the point, go figure), and they did not help in the SLIGHTEST with my period pain (pretty sure they made it worse, actually). I hated them to my core and had to stop taking them without telling my mom because the doctors would keep prescribing other pills that did the same (which didn't change much because they didn't help to begin with, but still). I feel so dumb for not clocking their intentions (not as a child, but as an intersex adult looking back on my medical history). They did not give a shit about my pain, did they ? They only cared that - hey look, these hormone levels are wrong, that kid looks wrong, that's what we need to fix - Heh ? You're bedridden once a month because of intense period pain ? Yes sure it will probably help with that too idk. What else did they do to me that I don't remember ?? Or that I forgot because I naïvely brushed it off as "doctors trying to help and me being too anxious to be comfortable with it" ?? What things that I DO remember am I not realizing were related to my intersexuality ??

Sorry for having a somewhat ridiculous awakening in your ask box zjfke but damn. A gazillion thanks for every intersex activism/education/experience blogs out there, it's 100% thanks to you that I'm no longer isolated and in the dark about myself, my body, and what has been done to me. Unlearning internalizef intersexism is a hell of a mess

This is intersexism and intersex joy!!