#future thoughts

Image Management - President!Baelor x PR!reader

(Tropes: Older Man/Younger Woman, Office Romance, Forbidden Love, mostly wholesome)

University AU Series:

Not Another Rockstar - Modern!Aerion x Reader

(Tropes: sort of enemies to lovers, inspired by that modern AU art, almost pride and prejudice-esque, opposites attract)

April Showers - Modern!Valarr x Reader

(Tropes: unlikely friends/lovers, slow burn, undefined relationship, jealousy, old money vibes)

Cate's Brother - Modern!Daeron x Reader

(Tropes: best friend's older brother, insecure/fail son!Daeron, winter vibes, soft and sweet)

Lawlessness - Modern!Valarr x Reader

(Tropes: academic rivals - enemies to lovers, rich boy/nepo baby!Valarr, dark academia, pride and prejudice-esque)

Funny Friend - Modern!Daeron x Reader

(Tropes: friends to lovers, requited unrequited love, sad boy!Daeron, bit of angst, mostly sweet)

Dumb Jock - Modern!Dunk x Reader

(Tropes: rugby boy!Dunk, golden retriever!Dunk, chubby/plus-size!reader, insecurity and sweetness)

Others:

Academic Validation - Professor!Baelor x Reader

(Tropes: Older Man/Younger Woman, forbidden love, power imbalance, emotional and sexy (lol))

Severe - Modern!Maekar x Babysitter!reader

Di ruang kelas, aku menghafal cara jantung berdenyut dan bagaimana saraf mengirimkan sinyal agar raga tetap terjaga. Namun, di luar teori medis itu, aku terbiasa menemukan ritme hidupku sendiri. Kasih sayang bagiku hadir melalui ruang-ruang yang lapang; seorang Ibu yang kutemui dalam untaian doa, dan seorang Ayah yang cintanya kupahami lewat punggung yang bergerak jauh untuk sebuah pengabdian tulus bagi sesama.

Kemandirian bagiku akhirnya bukan sekadar keterampilan klinis, melainkan cara untuk tetap stabil saat keadaan menuntutku untuk berdiri sendiri. Aku terbiasa mengobati lukaku sendiri dan menyimpan rapat apa pun yang terasa berat di pundakku. Bagiku, mencintai selalu identik dengan "menunggu" dan "memahami kesibukan".

Namun, jika nanti aku menjadi istrimu..

Aku ingin belajar bahwa aku tidak perlu lagi selalu tangguh sendirian. Menjadi istrimu berarti aku memiliki izin untuk meletakkan beban yang selama ini kubawa sendiri, bersandar pada bahu yang Allah pilihkan untukku. Aku tidak ingin lagi berjaga-jaga akan rasa kehilangan, karena bersamamu, aku menemukan rasa aman, sebuah bentuk penjagaan yang nyata setelah sekian lama hanya bisa kutitipkan lewat doa.

Aku tidak memintamu hadir untuk menggantikan peran siapa pun, aku hanya ingin kita menggenapi separuh agama ini bersama-sama. Jika aku menjadi istrimu, aku ingin kita membangun rumah yang di dalamnya sujud kita menjadi lebih khusyuk. Aku ingin menjadi kehadiran yang tidak lagi bersiap-siap untuk pergi, karena aku tahu bahwa kamu adalah ketetapan-Nya yang paling indah.

Terima kasih telah menjadi bagian dari rencana-Nya untuk menetap. Ternyata, sedalam apa pun ilmu yang kupelajari tentang bagaimana tubuh bertahan hidup, tidak ada yang lebih menenangkan daripada mengetahui bahwa Allah tidak pernah membiarkanku berjalan sendirian.

The emotional fight has seemed to reach its climax and within a question bursted back to your average state of caring.

Intuitively feeling a change in direction, a slight distancing, two souls decided to temporarily part ways even though they've been parted for a while.

The official state of those few messages, the attachment that like a gum held onto each part of the body, unwilling to let go, was forced to ever so slightly pressure a detachment in feelings.

But who are we kidding?

Every part of me screamed this doesn't seem right with every part of you promising we will cross paths again. Rather than happily agreeing and craving distance, we constantly repeated that this is for the best now, explaining how we need self-improvement and time. All while endlessly reminding one another of feelings that haven't changed and probably never will.

So why aren't we side by side?

03/02/2022 00:18

For the last few months, I have been feeling like a ship floating around without an anchor. Lately, I have been asking myself, if there are other ships like me and for how long can I float till I reach the end of the world? Is there an end to these endless waves? Or are they endless like my thoughts and questions?

It feels like I am trying to look for the bottom of the lake with my toes. I am stretching my body out, puckering my lips for air while my toes desperately search for the sand I should be feeling. Instead, I feel the cold of the water seep into my skin. The deepness of the lake feels cold and frightening because I do not know what could be swimming beneath my feet. 

Episode 6 was really good! I liked the tempo and the screentime seemed better played out. I hope we see the season plot pick up more. It feels like they're remembering how to write their characters (finally). They should've started the season with this, or a similarly written episode.

Character wise I want Ricky to get help, Gina to find a home at East High again, Ashlyn to kill it as Belle (and get a better plot than what she's getting), Carlos and Seb to have some kind of conflict they have to work through. Nini needs to break up with Ricky or vice versa unless they learn how to communicate/be in a relationship (it needs to be done, Rini is just not good for both of them right now. They work better as friends).

I want something for EJ, I dont know what yet - it seems like they're setting him up between moving to state uni or staying on as some kind of help/assistant teacher? I'm stealing this from a mutual but I want Howie to be a member of North High so we can get Howie and Kourtney sing off against each other.

Also (controversial opinion alert) I dont want portwell to be canon purely because Gina and EJ already have too much to worry about, they don't need to add a relationship on top of the mess/chaos. They both just need friends - it feels like the writers are trying to shove ppl into relationships when they would be better off staying single. Also EJ is hypothetically moving into a dorm and/or Gina is moving to Louisiana so they don't need any added hurt to their lives. Plus after the shit Ricky's pulled with Gina doesn't need any more hurt caused by boys.

Those are my thoughts for now anon!

It started off as clips of her doing her work at the Cafe so they were food based to begin with, then people started watching more and more and eventually she decided to make it into a fully fledged youtube channel when when she got older. Its mainly cooking recipes while also talking about unrelated topics that either are rather silly or kinda philosophical (which usually happens whenever Aito’s the guest star). Her old classmates and friends appear as guest stars which helps with the popularity boost!

What if he comes back 👀 if there’s a season 2?