#fractal system

Our friend even made a label for us to describe it X3 Fractal system!!! We're like like fractals

That's so cool!! Fractal sounds like a sleek name too actually. Hope you don't mind but I'll be tagging this with your friend's label.

At 2:13pm on March 15th 1839, there was an eclipse. This eclipse never ended.

The eclipse brought with it supernatural, baleful darkness, corrupting people and animals into monstrous reflections of their former selves. Most people keep to the towns and cities, surrounding massive lanterns burning spirit oil to keep the dark at bay. A bold and/or foolhardy few venture beyond the walls to gather resources their community desperately needs. These people are known as venturers, and our player characters join their ranks.

Welcome to this supernatural vision of the 1800s: Dark Vigil!

Dark Vigil's world immediately reminds me of one of my favourites- the world of Blades in the Dark. The atmosphere is very similar but the focus on travel beyond the cities brings greater certainty that you will be irrevocably changed by your experiences.

I had the pleasure of trying out this game at Chaosium Con Melbourne, with the game designer herself as my GM. I played a sunny and optimistic alchemist named Miss. Her optimism got her into some serious trouble when she sought the aid of a creature of the dark in passing through an abandoned city. She was almost lost to the dark, her corruption metre one step away from retiring her to mutated NPC status. Before that could happen she was killed by a massive eldritch wolf. She only returned to life because of a bargain: one which required her to leave the door to safe haven open when we reached it...

About us/the blog: We're a polyfragmented DID system that recently realized we're modular and even more recently that we're fractal. Due to our inherent isolation from the plural community(especially from other dissociative systems) and the lack of resources and written accounts from other modular systems, we're starting this blog. Sharing our story and experiences is also part of us trying to heal so cvnt on thattt too

We're in DID therapy. Our brain has audhd and PNES amongst other things, and those play major roles in how our modularity works and presents.

Our system has no individual alters nor fragments, however we've named different clusters and patterns. Plural they/them is preferred when referring to us, but when referring specifically to the host cluster, we use she/her and the name Basil.

Bodily we're a transgirl, adult, and from an eastern european country. We don't expect to vent about our trauma history, but also let's be real, one isn't the most likely to be like us if OEA wasn't involved, at least imo..

Terminology we use: To aid us in understanding and communicating our experiences, we've coined several terms that we'll use throughout this blog: Particle - that's what we call the smallest 'base' dissociative parts of the system. They have no sense of self, hold only one very particular trait/memory/sensation/etc, and feel unique to our modularity rather than like fragments non-modular systems might experience Flare - when multiple(usually dozens) of particles come together and merge, the result is a flare. It's a temporary type of system member that exists to fulfill a particular purpose or because of a trigger. once their work is done (may take milliseconds may take hours, rarely more than a day), they get disassembled back to particles. There's a flare fronting(and probably constantly switching) at all times. Once a flare is disassembled, it's near impossible to see them again, although a similar flare might come to existence at some point. Nebula - this is the clustering and grouping of particles. These clusters have an overarching theme (such as shared trauma, shared general purpose, etc) and the flares that come out of them often have many similarities. Basil, for example, is the 'host nebula'. These clusters have formed naturally and, due to how messy having so many particles and complexity is, they tend to be big and nebulous. Hence the name, heh

For more info and more terms we've coined, we have a list here: https://pluralpedia.org/w/User:RedactedSys

🗝️🏷️ possibly ego death, but we’re okay with it

We have next to no repeat fronters this season. It’s a traumatic time, different from the usual trauma that would be happening now. But that’s not all of it.

We’re a fractal system, the kind where our members are rarely the same twice. It varies from nearly imperceptible to entire shifts. It’s because we’re made like we are. Like sand. Our memories and states come together like grains forming stone, building up and scraping away. The longer we’re away, the less alike we are to our old selves.

It’s still me. Still us. But singlets don’t change this way. The gaining of experience without experiencing it. It’s beautiful, it’s imbedded in our system culture and functions. But it’s strange. I don’t know who I was a month ago, but I know I’ve been around longer than that. I wonder where the rest of me went, and who made me this version of myself.

There’s too many of us to know for sure. Our system grows as a baseline, and our front realm is connected to many places. There’s no surefire way to tell how we’ve shifted, we just have. The sands of time keep changing. The hourglass is intended to flow.

I’m not mourning, really. Just thinking. This is what we are. It burns like something is missing. The sensation makes me smile. I wouldn’t change it. We are the sands, and we are in motion.

It had been very active on twitter until the day the got rid of the actually berified blue checks and it just didnt wanna deal anymore. Took about... a year off it thinks? But am back now!

It writes silly lil doll things and horror~ Very unlikely to use content workings, so read at your own risk! It can be kinda heckin violent. >:D

This is THIS ONES tumblr, however other members of the Fractal system may decide they wanna post on occasion so when that happens we'll be sure to make it clear. ^.^

Its so happy to be back and writing again and to be finding new and old frens! Hope you enjoy what it posts and it looks forward to being here~!

So as the system members start posting, theyll get their own tag so if one of the following is in thw tags, it was them:

John: john speaks

Indigo: indi breaks

Macy: macys corner

DJ: djs degenerance