#forever lost

And the darkness looks so tempting

Don't want to be directionless

In constant search of a place to go

I know the way to death

Can find it very easily

It's literally everywhere

And

Life has far too much variance

Can't it all be colored the same for us all?

Can I find a perfect example of happiness that resonates with us all evenly?

I'm looking for my own happiness

I've seen some happily live and die with their happiness intact

I've seen some miserably live and die while searching for a happiness to call their own

Evidently I be the latter

Wish consciousness was a ladder

I could use to climb up and out the hole I dug myself into

It doesn’t matter how severe the burn.

It doesn’t matter how deep the wound.

I’d experience as many heartaches it’d take,

In as many lifetimes I must live

To find true love.

To fall in love.

To grow in love.

To live in love.

‘Til I die in Love.

I’d rather grieve than fear.

Sorrow, never pity.

Hope, never despair.

I adore love.

I admire lovers.

I’ll always find beauty in the pain.

Beauty in the depth of darkness..

Whether mine or yours.

I’ll always search for a sense of home

Whether near or far.

I’ll always hold onto hope

Whether shattered or scattered.

I’ll always choose chance over fear.

If given the choice..

Verloren in de Jungle

• There is such sad story: one day two young students from the Netherlands [Kris Kremers and Lisanne Froon] came into Panama for their vacantion and volounteer work but by a fateful coincidence they were lost in local jungle forever.  That day was exactly 10 years ago - April 1, 2014... I am a little curious about true-crime stories and something like that and watch some YT-channels with this theme. I usually take different stories neutrally, that is...Murders are very creepy and bad but I don't know why - for some reason it was this story of these two girls that painfully and fearful touched my heart. I even bough book about investigation of this story [honestly, not original but in translation]. And I wanted to make small drawing this year as memory of them, of their history.

2023 Ryoga on his way home (lol) from the gym, listening to airpods. Better hope you got a full bat charge babe, or a powerbank with you lol.

why does the pain still persist?

If nothing lasts forever,

how does this love for you still exist?

𝚑𝚎𝚢𝚔𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚛0̷𝚌𝚔𝚜