The thing that stuck out most to me here is the moral ambiguity of the trickster. It is such a quintessential aspect of pretty much all trickster deities, yet so many Lokeans (myself included) treat Loki as some sort of "all good" deity, or at least feel like he can do no wrong (or some similar sentiment), like he is always on our side and our side is Good. I think Rune makes a great point (around minute 6:00) that, in trying to distance Loki from the Christian concept of Satan, we have gone so far in the other direction that we may view Loki as a deity that is unambiguously good. But, as he also points out (a little after the 11:00 minute mark), to weave between the dark and light means you must also engage with the dark, and that our values (that we assign to the concepts of light and dark) are not inherently the values of tricksters.

It's that point on values that's had my brain churning. Because as a queer neurodivergent person, I feel support from Loki. I had a whole little trance journey that unintentionally turned to a small personal ritual for joining their family. My very being exists in the liminal like Loki does, and I can find comfort from them in that space. That does not, however, mean our values that inform how we move through the world are the same, and there are a whole slew of reasons for that.

One reason is that very binary of light and dark/good and evil has been ingrained in me from a young age. Even if I can recognize nuance and grey areas, it is still often challenging for me to accept or engage with it unless it in some way already aligns with my values or personal worldview. Conceptualizing it is one thing, but actually navigating and living in it is another. For example, I generally don't think murder is a great idea, but I do see how things like killing the United Healthcare CEO, for instance, make a statement that can facilitate change. Just as much as sending an innocent man like Abrego Garcia to a death camp makes a statement that can facilitate change. That sort of change can be for the benefit of the many over the few, but our individual values are what shape our idea of what is actually beneficial and to whom it is beneficial to. I would certainly prefer that we solve problems and care for as many people as we can without the loss of life, but that does not mean that Loki (or any other trickster, or even deity in general) shares those values. It does not meant that this liminal being I find myself aligned with won't be a catalyst for or support such violent actions. Nor does that mean I have a moral obligation to distance myself from said trickster.

Let's look at the lore for a minute. Loki is of Aesir and Jotun descent - an amalgamation of order/structure, and untamed chaos. They embody masculinity and femininity and use both as it suits their needs (Thrymsvitha). They exist within the established order while still ripping it to shreds (Lokasenna). They are willing to instigate death and the destruction of that very order they exist in so that new life, and therefore a potentially new order, has a chance to exist (Baldrs draumar). Their partners reflect their willingness to not just love and engage with both order/light (Aesir via Sigyn) and chaos/darkness (Jotun via Angrboda), but also their ability to quite literally breed both light (Vali and Narfi) and dark (Jormungandr, Fenrir, and Hel) to perpetuate the presences of both within all of existence. Loki's very being walks the line, jumps over it, moves it around, destroys and redraws it, always making it difficult to know where the line is or if it even exists at all. That is liminality. That is ambiguity. That is what and who we are aligning ourselves with as Lokeans, no matter what our personal values are.

In our current political landscape in the U.S., I see this kind of liminal energy manifesting in my spiritual community. There is a pull to learn how to engage in situations that may become violent just as much as there is a pull to engage with one another in laughter and joy. Both are needed to survive - not just in this climate, but throughout life in general. Being capable and willing to engage with darkness as much as the light. Loki has become a much more prominent deity in my community, and that seems to be true even further beyond us. I think we are seeing a need to engage with this trickster energy as we see it manifest more in the world around us. As much as we use it to further our own values, others can use it for theirs, and we can't say or control if and when Loki supports us both, even if we are in direct opposition to one another. But it is in Loki's DNA to do just that. We all want to survive, after all, and Loki certainly looks out for their own survival. (Just look at how they dealt with Thjassi and Idunn, or the dwarves with Sif's hair.)

This is my opinion at the moment and I know it may change with time, but I think, ultimately, if we are going to align ourselves with Loki, we need to accept that we are aligning ourselves with the dark as much as the light. We can act and live in whatever way we choose to. We have personal agency and are allowed to have our own values that shape our concepts of dark and light, regardless of our deities of choice; but when we tell people we work with, worship, or in any other way associate with Loki, we are making a statement that we accept (if not embrace) those forces at play within the world. For myself, I think part of my work with Loki is to simply work towards greater acceptance of that truth: that what I consider to be light and dark is not universal, and that what I do consider light and dark exist simultaneously both out in the world and within me. (That's what shadow work is, right?)