If you Hold the light just right,

You might for a moment see,

I’m not in the light,

It’s just reflecting past me,

I once again know the truth,

It’s very plain to see.

I’m not worth diving into,

Revealing layers in love,

I am whore to be taken,

Dress me as you will,

A puppet has no need for depth,

No need to see the scars, or hear the battle song,

I’ll sit in silence the world will never see,

I am goose-hugged

I am cloud-warm, a

Night star swinging

From the horizon

I am droopy eyed

Weary limbed, sinking

Into dreams unknown

A night sky sings

Sweetly, I kneel

Before an almost--

Lilac-scented slumber

The wind whispers her secrets,

Lull me in & out of conscious,

Send me adrift into the night,

I murmur your name--

A goodnight kiss to

Empty arms, flowers

Blooming in my veins

The fantasy flourishes,

Under battered eyelids

You never left, goodbye's

A nightmare undreamt

My chest is aching

With confessions

Confined, pride and

Fear sing me to sleep

The stars croon

A final hallelujah,

A loveless amen

We just

Pray for a goodnight

fallenpoets

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Angel in a bottle,

I found heaven in a taste and sin in a glass,

You flirt like whiskey, smile like wine,

We’re all tatters,

Pieces of “used to be”,

Dancing on the edge,

Feet off the rim,

Slip in and drown my love -

An addict’s wonderland

Between lips,

Sweeter than the lies they’re accustomed,

Harder to swallow.

@fallenpoets

notebook fragments

1. He smiled at me today. I am not sure what to do with myself. 2. The darkness that settled itself inside of me started to fade at the sight of light. (my arms and legs turned to jello) 3. It has been 3 days since I last spoke to her and I am trying not to, I am trying not to be like this, like this 4. Why am I like this? 5. We spoke today. He smiled and he became the sunrise. 6. What is the difference between love and co-dependency? 7. I had to switch my light on and off last night 36 times. 8. None of them know. 9. We kissed for the first time today and i swear i know now why the birds sing when the sun comes up. I swear i know now what it is like to have a light 10. I forgot myself at home today 11. He asked me not to say anything about it and i agreed 12. Reality is a nasty vicious monster, who bit me and made me realize that the sun sets in paradise too 13. I am losing my mind 14. Tell her that I am sorry 15. I am sorry

The clock ticks inside my head again,

The inevitable fade, the unconscious conscience.

The space spanning eons of non-thought,

Capture my heart and soul is easy,

Holding not so much,

Your so set on being right, you’ll never be happy.

You don’t want a partner or someone to grow with.

You want a maid that gives you sex.

And makes you feel important, doesn’t matter if she’s dying inside,

Unseen and unmattered with a sprinkle of sarcasm.

You couldn’t possibly put someone first.

And I can’t be bothered to be honest,

Another relationship with a man that can’t get over himself, inside himself,

Or demote himself as self appointed leader.