There is a river in me that misses its sea — Both such heretics; The ridiculous promise of breath, Beauty, madness, and fear
The flowers turn into wounded animals, then hope To turn back to seeds Forever unnamed Soon to sprout into sand
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There is a river in me that misses its sea — Both such heretics; The ridiculous promise of breath, Beauty, madness, and fear
The flowers turn into wounded animals, then hope To turn back to seeds Forever unnamed Soon to sprout into sand

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Dance Away, DrMorbius12, 2026
Water color, alkyd paint, paper cutout
Poem #100
The wave form, flesh of white fruits
And pre-dawn rain. A taste of open water
That could down you in an inch.
Earth signs mark the southern passages.
Wheat bores from holes perceived as stars.
Asphodels. Yellow-green scents on the tongue.
Speak in triplets like pressing a flower.
Portals of blue and purple, between states,
Before the invention of time gave words to
Our distances. Something pulls at the back
Of my eye, a slip between the red horizon,
Superimposed from another place entirely.
I will tell my children the sky is the colour of pomegranates.
I will show them that the long river’s pull is like walking on the moon.
I will wash them in the slow days between then and now.
A version of me must carry it.
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After everything— the echoes, the aftermath, the sting— where do all these hurtful words go? Is there a place I can bury them, a quiet box I can lock tight so they don’t come crawling back when the night gets too still and I’m just about to drift away?
Is there a corner of the universe where I can throw them, far enough that even memory won’t bother to follow?
What do I do with the shards— the pieces of me left splintered by the things you said? Where do I tuck them so they stop cutting every part of who I’m trying to be?
How do I move forward without seeing myself through the warped mirror of your wounded vision?
And tell me— how do I keep loving you while knowing, deep down, that none of this should have ever been?
when the bough breaks
* the boughs have broken as our childish notions take a spill; & the 'ow' upon landing grants standing in the disabused crew, still.
who long ago knew that lofty slogans of life, liberty & happiness' pursuit were fitted to motivate folk inexperienced in its fruit having lived under regimes for eons, it seems & whose primary goal was reigning supreme over downtrods not part of their crested lineage; self-modelled in the image of gods walkin 'mongst us, tolerant of nary a modicum of fuss
while squalor, famine & stress ravaged landscapes where the rest of forebears trod & scraped, then.
can you reference where or when authorities truly cared about a folk laid bare by decrees, fighting for morsels of largesse they could manage to finesse, from the oblique'd noblesse they entreated them to bless; loosening their hubristic fists shackling folk in Ulyssestic grips.
fade to black, then to white - which to some seems quite alright in pendulum's swings from day into night; should you think ideals were ever truly embraced in the throes of that great paper chase consuming most nations sans grace, renumeration to those who slaved to create a foundation for any fledging nation's liberation.
assonance aside - far be it from me to recast & ride a bombastic take, but now acknowledged en masse, for heaven's sake -
attempts to coronate leaves some folk verklempt at a reprobate's place in our starred & striped space; tending toward steps we'd do well to retrace from kleptocracy to a democracy we'd best reembrace, or some reasonable facsimile - in any form, any case.
it's no longer child's play, our fragile fate's decay in 3D & 4K display; if we're to believe our good sense's assay each & every dawn; we'd supplicate & do well to never forget
avoiding the precursors to much grief & regret, in the pall the leaf'd boughs breaking would beget, multiplying like spawn. * 9/25 - lebuc - when the bough breaks

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My first wounding tasted like moths:
death fluttered in the hollows of
my cheeks, dust collected in my gums
while tiny wings went on a futile hunt
for light. The fissures in my heart started
months before the end, in that darkness
where language escaped me and silence
bred more chaos. When finally left
alone (one act of mercy), every lightbulb
shattered. I’m still picking wings and glass
out of my teeth all these years later and
I resent that I can’t seem to erase all traces
of trauma, that I once mistook an emerging sunrise
for hope of redemption.
i. How could I brazenly claim The stars When even rainfall Like rivers Flows not to nor from me But through These feelings too Shall pass Like starlight turned to day
ii. These feelings are not mine to feel Not mine to hurt nor heal Yet like the rain that fell into my cup, my well Pass through me As the river does To sea So eyesight on starlight That I’ve no right To claim Who could be so brazen What claim could be made I hold no title nor no deed No flower, save a reed To whistle my whittled tune Chipped down and down, what loon-acy You see This emotion that doth stir The rivers, ponds, and birds No birds or bees No stories
NaNoWriMo Vol. 4, 11.22.24 “Can't Help Feeling"
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I could spend all my mornings
Wrapped up in blankets
Like this--your hand in mine
My head on your chest
Wallowing in our lazy Sunday best
Betting on endless tomorrows
The relentless sun seeks us out
Wishing to shine as bright and hot
No such luck but it gets us up
Still I sip my coffee with a smile
Drain the last drop while you wrestle
With the urge for a smoke
Instead you light on my lips
Zoom in till there's zero room for doubts
Then you're wearing my grin
As if it's always been that easy
Effortless, like nothing else
I've never known moments
Like this could exist
Prompts: you and I this morning; wrestling with smoke; still I