#existential fear

Stolen from Bluesky. I have no idea where it originated and do not care to look. If you made this meme or know who did, give yourself/them a hearty pat on the back.

Donnie: Entropy, the eventual heat death of the universe, how we’re nothing more then random atoms floating in a dark void of nothing…I-I mean, losing my bothers…yeaaaaahhhhh….

© Yolanda Poh

Sadia Hakim

A dusky night with a hazy due, I recollected my thoughts to cope up with the way things have been. Somehow I always do that, reshuffling the deck of life to feel better. Sometimes it helps, sometimes, it definitely doesn't. It's a try to change the perspective, and try to polish the night a little. Was the moon always this blurred? I am losing the sight of the visionary self I was. The moonlight used to be my crutch, now it's gone, nowhere to be found. I see people from the past doing better than me, it doesn't really bother me but it kind of hurts to see myself lagging behind. Everyone moves ahead when I stand still. The fear of missing out, always kills me, and I fail to do anything about it. At this point, even writing all of this seems to be just an escape and I feel I will lose the sense of this as well, soon. When that happens, I'll be as alive as a dead poet.

Is NOT fun. Cause I legit just had a 2 second panic attack over the matter and will now not be going to sleep ever.