Announcement + An Apology (sorta)
Hello everyone! So it's Fynn, the original owner of this blog. Wow it's been an awesome how many years? I don't know, probably somewhere around four or five that I've had this blog. But ANYWAYS, it's been such an awesome journey BUT it has also been quite the rough one. At the time it creating this blog, I was in several abusive and manipulative relationships which led to me feel entirely insecure about myself, to resorting to me keeping secrets and trying to cover up things I shouldn't have. And while I am regretful for choices that I've made, I'm so happy and thankful for my massive group of supporters. I love every single one of you, I truly do.
When I first made this blog it was to take my mind off of my depression and engulf myself into a world of just anime and shipping. Anything that wasn't reality. And four years later, I've learned that that was such a huge mistake. In real life, I've gone through some shit times, both with my mental health and with horrible people around me I once trusted. So I created this blog with an entirely different mindset that I have today. I'm a much more mentally strong, with a different set of thoughts. I now know many healthy coping mechanisms, not ones that are destructive with temporary relief, which is kind of what this blog was. Which leads me to my point: I think I'm gonna be leaving this blog and possibly deleting it.
I've noticed that I'm so much happier when I'm not dealing with the drama that goes on within this fandom. Yes, I made a mistake of not telling you all about the owners and what the fuck was going on (although really, it shouldn't have mattered, I wanted to put that in my past because it was a horrible time for me) and I apologize for that, and I apologize to the people who ever got involved. And by everyone I mean everyone. All parties, because really, drama is something we all definitely could live without.
But this fandom was becoming toxic. Due to the large gain of mass followers I got in such a short amount of time, there were so many people who saw me as ereriposts, and not as a person. People began accusing me of being a hateful person who bashes on other ships, which is not true. I'm accepting of everyone's ships, I really am. I got so much hate for apparently bashing on eremika when that's not true? I actually somewhat ship Mikasa and Eren because hell, my lil bby Mikasa is so good for Eren. They're great as a duo.
Regardless, nobody bothered to actually talk to me before assuming I'm a bad person, and that was entirely toxic for me. A perfect example was the discord I was kicked out of: the mod didn't bother actually asking for my side of the story before kicking me out, but instead, after, when they saw I was pissed. I mean... What? That kind of amused me but in a way, I'm glad it happened. I think it was a huge step in forcing me to take one huge step back from the fandom.
So basically to wrap this up, I'm leaving this blog. I'll still be in my personal ones! But not on this one. I have distanced myself far from the fandom and I'm happy enough to stay where I am. I don't want to get back into a place that was created by depression, anxiety, and hurt, you know? It brings back memories, times, and feelings I wish to forget. I still haven't decided whether I'll be deleting it or not, but I think what's going to happen is that I'm going to give it to someone else that I trust. OR I might take a crazy turn and turn this whole things into a....
Marvel blog! (But that's a huge "might")
Idk. Just a thought, I've been in that fandom longer than this one and I've found people have been a lot kinder in it :/ 😂
So I just want to thank everyone who has remained by my side for so long. I love all of you, and I am forever grateful for your support and love. You guys have created a better and stronger person out of me, including my haters. I will miss all of you, but if anyone wants to message me, just message my personal blogs, I'm all ears! ^~^
Again, I love you all! 💕♥️
(also, if you want my personal blog, send me a message! I'll give it to you privately ^~^)
