#draft 2

With that being said, I just finished a book I saw recommended on TikTok, 'Before I Go To Sleep' by S.J. Watson, a psychological thriller/domestic noire that delves into identity and how resilient the human mind can be despite being under major stress/trauma. I absolutely rec it, though it does cover heavy themes of: Domestic VIolence, Gaslighting, Manipulation, Emotional/Psychological/Sexual Abuse, and Prolonged Exposure Therapy (PE), so I advise taking breaks if you read it (I had to even though i finished it in one day)

Next on my reading list: 'Daughter of the Siren Queen' by Tricia Levenseller

Editing/Writing Schedule for 2026:

-Instead of starting the self editing stage for Draft 2 on December 24th, I'll be starting it on January 2nd; I'll be starting with developmental edits

-I will be getting to those who have DMed me for interest in Beta reading ASAP after Draft 3 or 4 is polished (this may take a while, possibly late into 2026/early 2027, so I ask for your patience while I provide updates per usual on this blog). I don't have a set number for Beta Readers, so there is still availability open.

-Also, for Beta Readers, I'm in the process of drafting up the Google Doc with specific information I'll be looking for from you all (I will send this with the polished Draft 3/4 to the contact details you've provided)

Draft 2 is done, look at this beast !!

152k words

433 pages

Until…

Until…’Fuck I love this project - how did I forget how proud I am of the plot? How did i forget I actually do know what I’m doing?’

Took… six weeks? But part of that was having to reconfigure so much about the protag. It was actually properly writing the beginning and figuring out how I am introducing so many things to the reader. Actually getting a handle on that exposition problem…

Anyway. I am certainly not in any position to celebrate because I literally feel like I can finally fucking start and get some momentum going, confidently. But I feel proud of it anyway. Because I spent so many days thinking ‘no really, is it time to choose a different project?’

I must have been loud in a past life.

That is why my jaw always hurts. That is why I can’t stop tucking my hair

behind my ears.. 

I never needed to learn about the edges of letters

and how sharp they can feel pressed against an unspoken moment.

I must have been fragile in a past life.

That is why my bones are so big. That is why

I am able to close my ribs tighter

and tighter together until my heart cannot escape.

In a world where softness feels like a curse, I 

know my soul once yearned for it.

I am a body adapting to an ancient

callous. A soft paint stroke of an amnesiac soul

trying to remember

what it never had. Someone, somewhere, long ago

In real life, we says that the powers that be want to bring about the New World Order (the NWO)