#doctor problems

TW Talk about medication, medication effects, and behavior of a doctor

There's worse.

I've met quite a few of them.

One of them having the audacity to say "actually i think youre depressed because youre fat" to a potential mental illness patient.

Trying to get an adhd diagnosis at 23 is hell.

I mean, i got diagnosed by a doctor who is literally conducting a research on adhd, plus, two other but i still get the "you might be just depressed" from others.

Don't get me wrong i know i could have depression too, i know how comorbid ilnesses work. But i am not depressed.

Im simply not.

I do get secondary depression time to time but that's basically just because i get undersimulated and bored as fuck. And it goes away in a few days, tops.

It was basically “That sucks, but have hope because God can heal you. There’s this video of a woman who couldn’t walk and she went to a healing service and she was healed! It was amazing, you should watch it.” And that was that. Well, she elaborated more on the story than that, but then she walked away to do something else. 

I do believe in God. I consider myself a Christian. I hate the way a lot of churches and Christians in general handle chronic illness. They forget that Jesus didn’t heal everyone. They forget that when Jesus did heal, the focus wasn’t on the illness itself, but on the person’s spiritual state and their connection to community/worship or place in the community. 

I don’t have hope that God can heal me. I have hope that I can have a good life even with this illness. Her words weren’t comforting to me, they were patronising and dismissive. I know it wasn’t her intent, but basically what she was saying was “the life you have isn’t good enough, and it won’t be good enough until your illness is gone.”

Plus there’s the whole mess around healing within the Christian faith - am I sick because I don’t believe enough? Because I don’t have enough faith? Because there’s some sin I’m holding on to? Because I want to be ill instead of well?