How Cortis members yearn
âș Pairing | OT5 x reader (separate scenarios)
âș synopsis | how Cortis members would yearnđ
âș warnings | none!
âș authors note | uhhhh, I hope you like it.
James
âș he keep wanting to text youâgood news, bad news, dumb thoughts. His thumb hovers. He doesnât always send it, but the urge itself is loud. He just always wants to speak to you, even if heâs busy.
For him, yearning shows up as a constant impulse to share his life with you. Not in a dramatic, overwhelming wayâbut in a steady, instinctive one. Youâre the person his mind turns to in the in-between moments, the pauses in his day where he gets to breathe and think.
When heâs on a break from practice, youâre the first person he wants to tell. Not because anything huge happened, but because you matter enough to be included in the small details. He wants you to know how it went, how he felt, what heâs thinking afterward.
When heâs traveling for a concert, he keeps you updatedâwhen heâs heading out, when he arrives, when heâs finally settled. Itâs not about obligation; itâs about comfort. Letting you know where he is makes the distance feel smaller, like youâre still part of his world even when youâre not physically there.
After the concert, he wants to tell you everything. The energy, the crowd, the moments that stood out, the feelings that are still buzzing in his chest. Youâre not just someone he reports toâyouâre someone he relives it with.
And just as much as he wants to talk, he wants to listen. He hopes youâll do the same. He loves hearing about your day, even the ordinary parts, because your voice grounds him. Calling you just to hear youâno agenda, no label, no pressureâfeels natural. Even if youâre not dating, the connection is real. Youâre the person he wants to stay tethered to, no matter how busy or far away he is.
Thatâs yearning for James: choosing you, again and again, in the quiet moments where nothing forces him toâhe just wants to.
Juhoon
âș heâs fine⊠technically. But everything reminds him of you in small, annoying waysâyour favorite song, a phrase you used, the way his phone lights up not with your name.
yearning shows up in the way youâve quietly woven yourself into his everyday life. Youâre not always on his mind on purposeâbut youâre there anyway, slipping in through the smallest moments.
One of the other members might casually bring up a show you like, and before he even realizes it, an automatic smile spreads across his face. It catches him off guard every time. He doesnât mean to react that way, and sometimes he wishes he didnâtâbut his body gives him away. Youâve become something warm and familiar to him, something that shows up without asking.
Juhoon hates that you have that kind of effect on him⊠and at the same time, he loves it. Thereâs frustration in knowing youâre able to shift his mood so easily, but thereâs also comfort in it. You make things brighter for him, even when youâre not there, and thatâs hard to resent for long.
He adds your favorite song to his playlist, telling himself itâs no big deal. But when it finally comes on, he lets it play again and again. He doesnât skip it. He doesnât rush it. He just sits with it, letting the melody pull memories of you to the surfaceâyour voice, your laugh, the way you made him feel in that moment. The song becomes less about the music and more about you.
And when he sees things that remind him of youâsomething youâd like, something that fits your tasteâhe buys it for himself. Not because he needs it, but because having it nearby makes you feel closer. Every time he uses it or looks at it, he thinks of you, like itâs a small, private reminder that you exist in his world in ways he canât easily undo.
Thatâs the yearning Juhoon doesnât always admit to: you lingering in his life through smiles he didnât plan, songs he canât skip, and objects that quietly hold your presence. Youâre there even when heâs trying to act like heâs fineâand thatâs what makes it so powerful.
Martin
âș He imagine moments that havenât happened yet and feel sad youâre not thereâtrips, jokes, inside references that donât exist without you.
For Martin, yearning lives in the future he keeps picturing with youâmoments that havenât happened, but feel vivid and real anyway. His mind drifts there without warning, building scenes he didnât plan to imagine but canât seem to stop.
He pictures the simple things first. Walking side by side, hands brushing and then naturally intertwining. Wandering through stores with no real purpose, pointing things out, laughing, stealing glances at each other. Hugging for a little longer than necessary, just because it feels right. Spending time together without needing a reasonâjust being close, just existing in the same space.
But the thought that stays with him the most is being in the studio with you late at night. The world quiet, the lights low, just the two of you creating something together. Sharing headphones, trading ideas, feeding off each otherâs energy. In that imagined moment, it doesnât feel rushed or forcedâit feels easy, like you belong there with him. That thought alone is enough to make him wish you were already part of his everyday life, so moments like that wouldnât have to stay imaginary.
Sometimes the weight of those thoughts hits him unexpectedly. Wanting you there so badly it almost hurtsânot because heâs unhappy, but because he can see how good it could be. He doesnât just miss you as you are; he misses the version of life where youâre woven into everything he loves.
Even during his concerts, when the lights are bright and the crowd is loud, you find your way into his thoughts. In the middle of the performance, heâll catch himself wondering what it would be like if you were thereâstanding in the crowd, watching him, sharing that moment with him. The idea sends a rush through him. His energy lifts. He performs harder, fuller, like the thought of you alone is enough to fuel him.
Thatâs the kind of yearning this is: not just missing someone, but imagining a future with them so clearly that it starts to feel like something heâs already lost. Youâre not only part of his present thoughtsâyouâre part of the life he keeps reaching toward, hoping one day it wonât just live in his head.
Seonghyeon
âș he meet new people, but part of him is constantly measuring: âWould y/n laugh at this?â âWould they get this the way that she did?â
For him, yearning shows up in the way youâve quietly become his internal reference point. No matter who heâs with or how social the moment is, part of his mind is always filtering things through you.
Heâll be sitting at a table with the other members, relaxed, joking around, when someone says something funny. He laughsâbut not just because the joke landed. He laughs because, in his head, he can already imagine your reaction. The way youâd laugh at it, the comment youâd probably add, the look youâd give him afterward. Sometimes he realizes heâs smiling more at the thought of you laughing than at the joke itself.
Every now and then, he lets an inside joke slip. Something that only makes sense in the world the two of you share. When no one reactsâwhen the table stays quiet or confusedâhe doesnât even feel embarrassed. He just shrugs it off with a small smile and says, âY/n would get it.â And he means it. You understand him in a way that doesnât need explaining, and moments like that remind him how rare that kind of connection is.
Even when he meets someone new, your presence lingers in his thoughts. He doesnât compare them to you outrightâbut he wonders. Would you like them? Would you feel comfortable around them? Would they fit into the version of life he imagines when youâre in it? Your opinion matters to him, even when youâre not there to give it.
Thatâs the quiet ache of this kind of yearning: youâve become his measure for familiarity, comfort, and understanding. Heâs not actively trying to look for you in other peopleâbut he notices when they donât quite match the way you made him feel. And in those moments, he realizes that no matter how full the room is, thereâs still a space that only you ever seem to fill.
Keonho
âș Itâs physical before itâs logicalâtight chest, heavy stomach, a sigh he didnât plan. His body misses you even when his brain is trying to be normal.
Keonhoâs yearning isnât something he thinks throughâitâs something his body reacts to before he has any control over it. You donât have to be in the room to affect him; sometimes just the idea of you is enough to set everything off.
The moment he thinks about you, thereâs a restless energy that takes over. His thoughts speed up, his focus slips, and he feels almost jittery, like his system has been thrown slightly off balance. When a text from you comes in, his heart jumps instantlyâno warning, no preparation. It doesnât matter how calm he was a second ago; your name alone is enough to make his pulse spike.
Hearing your voice does the opposite. Where everything else makes him nervous or wired, you calm him in a way nothing else really can. The sound of you grounds him. His breathing slows, his shoulders relax, and for a moment, everything feels steadier. Even if heâs stressed or overwhelmed, talking to you makes the noise in his head quiet down.
Being around you is a whole different experience. His face heats up without him meaning to, his palms get sweaty, and he becomes painfully aware of himselfâhow close you are, how heâs standing, what heâs saying. Itâs uncomfortable and thrilling at the same time. His body reacts like itâs nervous, but his instincts keep pulling him closer anyway.
Thatâs the contradiction he canât escape: you make him flustered, exposed, and unsteadyâyet youâre exactly where he wants to be. Even when his nerves are shot and his heart wonât slow down, he still chooses you. Again and again. Because despite the anxiety, thereâs something about being near you that feels right, like his body recognizes you as someone important long before his mind is ready to admit it.
Thatâs the physical side of yearningâthe way someone can live under your skin, turning simple moments into reactions you canât hide, no matter how hard you try.
















