#dissasociative

Hello 175 people that still follow me for some reason despite me doing literally nothing for six months, I am still alive. So, where did I come from where did I go, where did you come from cotton eye joe.

Ok so I just did that. Moving on, I kind of sort of maybe got back into Ye Olde Habit of repressing my feelings and generally being a train wreck. And then the panorama happened. I’m not using the real word because triggers, and I refuse to get in drama...yet...

But rejoice, I am back, and I’m doing somewhat decent(?) so hey, progress is always lovely. My inbox is full, I appreciate you guys, and I’ll start answering those. 

Also for the record, here is the general direction my blog is going in for now: I’m open to answering questions about DID/NPD stuff still, and idk, I will be throwing my emotional bullshit into the void sort of like I’m doing now. So yay, the journey continues. I was honestly thinking about waiting 365 days, but alas, I have been wracked with passion alongside my poor impulse control.

There are 7 alters plus the host who share the same body and mind. Below is a brief introduction to each of us.

Brandi - female, 25, host

Loralie -female, 24

Dorthea - female, mid-30s, protector/mother figure

Jane - female, 15

Jupiter - female, 16, trauma holder

Ruby - female, little (will not disclose age or any other details)

Nadine - female, 17, hothead, protector

Ocean - female, newest alter.

We will always try to sign whichever post we share or write.

This is a place of safety and positivity. Any negativity will be blocked and removed.

We hope you are doing really well today.

I don't technically have legal rights.

What would happen if every member of a system was a legal human, as in all having the right to vote, have id's ect

How long would it take me to lose all of those id's

Why did they make more movies after split. Like seriously, it was like discount marvel with mental disorders instead of super powers except it was a horror trope. Wow that entire sentence made no sense

How many people have realized what I am (My system isn't out. Also I'm not exactly subtle)

Why after five years does it still take me a few minutes to respond to the host's name.

Am I a good system leader? A good person? How much do labels such as persecutor matter.

If I'm destined to be a persecutor forever I am somewhat fucked.

I found a rock under my pillow last night. Who tf did that? Why?? It was a nice rock though.

When is my system going to have that big happy family vibe. I mean come on, its making us look bad

Why are people surprised by the number of systems on tumblr. Of course we all flock to the Internet.

Am I always alone? Or never alone. This bothers me.

Why can't I remember what silence sounds like XD

In my system there are four others similar to me. Are we the same? Does anyone see us as different?

When will my partner leave me. I mean I annoy the hell out of them. It can't be easy with all of us.

I don't wanna explode in fear

A dead astronaut in space

Sometimes we walk like we were shot

Through our heads, my love

We write our song in space like we're