#deras

padahal mintanya dijauhkan dari patah

Hari ini hujannya sedang, turun perlahan, di hiasinya sepanjang siang dengan suara rintik ringannya.

Beda dengan hari sebelumnya, hujan itu turun dengan terburu, seperti tumpah dari langit, suaranya bergemuruh mendebarkan, tapi segera reda dan akhirnya pergi.

Lauren McCluskey explained to the officer at the University of Utah that she was being extorted over explicit photos she had taken of herself. Someone — she wasn’t certain who at that moment — had accessed her files and was threatening to release them if she didn’t hand over $1,000.

Scared by the demand, she paid the money and then sent copies of the messages and the pictures to the campus police department as evidence.

When Miguel Deras, one of the officers assigned to her case, received them, he saved the photos on his personal phone. And days before McCluskey was killed by the man who was blackmailing her, Deras showed off at least one of the images to a male co-worker and bragged about getting to look at them whenever he wanted, according to two fellow officers.

The university has only now confirmed that display occurred — a year and a half after McCluskey first brought her concerns to the department — as part of a continued push by The Salt Lake Tribune to obtain public records on how the case was handled. The U. spoke to the officer who was shown the pictures by Deras and verified the action with him. The Tribune also substantiated it with another officer, who overheard Deras talking to that co-worker.

Neither officer reported the incident at the time, and Deras was never disciplined for it.

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karena terkadang

saat kepala penat dan dada sesak

pilihan yang tepat bukan duduk didepan laptop

atau pun membaca buku kesukaan

Langit cerah saat itu

namun dapat setengah jalan

tiba-tiba hujan turun

sangat deras

aku tak berhenti juga tak balik badan untuk kembali kerumah

aku tetap melanjutkan untuk berjalan

sampai akhirnya aku sadar ada yang tak biasa dengan air hujan kali ini

air yang menetes di pipi tak seperti biasa rasanya

lalu kuambil cermin di dalam tas kecilku

mataku sembab

ternyata air mataku ikut jatuh

Tentang rindu yang tak kunjung reda

Entah waktu yang tak memberi kita luang

Atau kita yang tak memberi luang pada waktu

Lalu lalang menunggu diantara derasnya

Tapi mengambil payung pun terlampau lelah