#cdd protector

being inside a trans body while identifying as our birth gender is complicated. i feel an overwhelming sense of grief, guilt, and dysmorphia. as a protector, i want the best for us, and i know that what is best is to continue our physical transition, but i cannot bring myself to do our t-shot. it's too hard. too dissonant with my own identity and desires. i guess i'm lucky that many of our features are naturally feminine, so i can still pass as a girl when i wear the right things, but i can't look in the mirror at myself too closely or i start to fixate on the coarse body hair or the new muscle tone or whatever else.

When you're The Protector™ and you are never getting a fucking break

When @firstnamelastname13948903 has a shitty opinion on social media