What should be said:
others: what’s wrong with her? doesn’t she have friends? Why is she always alone?
me: hey guys. so first of all,
fyi I do have friends. they are the best friends one could ever wish for, and I’m immeasurably thankful for having them.. so that’s not the point! (even if you guys wish it was). the point is that while being alone, I’m not lonely. There are so many thoughts, memories, songs, yeah even people inside my head.. there’s not a chance to feel lonely.
others: are you saying that there are voices inside your head?? I knew it, she’s a psycho!
me: everybody has these voices. some call it intuition, others god.
The difference between me and other people is that I listen to these voices. not only do I listen, but I reply to them.. while others don’t like the feeling of being controlled by their mind, I treat these voices with respect, because they are strong and more powerful than one could ever imagine. the only way to regain control over the mind is to befriend it so that it is willing to do you good.
others: are you saying you like these crazy moments?
me: exactly. I see it as some
sort of quality time. while others put some masks on their faces and call it “self care”, I take care of my mind by listening, asking, and feeling what it has to say..
others: that means you like obeying the orders of your mind..
me: wait! who said I obey?
I’m listening to it but as I said, it is a conversation with mutual participation. I can agree or disagree..
I can do whatever I want to as long as I give reasons which (in the best case) lead my mind to accepting decisions against its will.
others: so you’re talking to yourself?? eww that’s strange.
me: I don’t have to talk.
but back to the point:
I’m not lonely when I’m alone. In fact, I need this time alone. I enjoy it. I’m not sad. I don’t wish people were by my side. There is a time for being with friends, which I enjoy and love.. and there’s a time for being alone. and I wouldn’t want to miss one of the two.
thanks for listening guys.
