#bpdproblems

I'm just so sick of needing attention and validation all the time and then completely losing it at the smallest thing and feeling like I should kill myself.

I'm interested in many things but only for a short period of time. Like, I have an idea and get really excited and the next week I couldn't care less. This is why I have a huge collection of equipment for potential hobbies and activities in my apartment. There are calligraphy books, wool and stuff for knitting, watercolors, books for learning Swedish and Italian, a wicca altar with candles and herbs, an e-piano, dead plants, an empty aquarium, a makeup desk full of lipsticks and highlighters I've never put on, tools for making jewelry...the list goes on. And the only thing I'm using is my Netflix account.

You know that feeling when you just want to burst out crying but then remember you’re out in public