Jul 17
Relapsed after 15 weeks clean :p
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Relapsed after 15 weeks clean :p
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avpd culture is.... not liking the label avoidant?
it took me so long to even consider i might have avpd because i never felt "avoidant". there's a weird, dodgy sort of feeling when i picture the word— it feels like calling ADHD "procrastination" or executive dysfunction "laziness". it feels like it comes from an external point of view that doesn't Get it, isn't even trying to get it.
i don't have the "weaseling out of things" disorder, i don't have the "deliberately flakey and unreliable" disorder— avoiding things is the effect, not the mechanism, and it took looking at actually avoidant anecdotes for me to realize that.
personally, from an experiential point of view, it feels more like a risk aversion blown out of control. i'm always worried that something i do will have some kind of Effect, so i don't do anything at all. and it doesn't register that not doing things can also have an effect, and when it does it's even more paralyzing.
and i think, knowing what the hell my brain is ACTUALLY doing instead of just vaguely being accused of being "avoidant" is really important and helpful for being able to cope with it
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avpd culture is being afraid to attack someone on artfight because what if your art actually sucks and the person receiving it hates it and ignores it? what if i get a part of the character design wrong? what if they dont comment on my attack? i also tend to avoid attacking friends out of fear i wont do their character justice or that they get an attack from someone much better at art than myself and ignore mine.
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Avpd culture is reading into simple questions so deeply that you get nauseous when answering them, and feeling stupid when it turns out to have been nothing
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AvPD culture is the fact that I used to have a really good and close friend that I considered my sibling, but then I was honest to them about one (1) part of my identity and they called me delusional and said I was “stuck living in fiction” and proceeded to ghost me when I tried to text them at all after that. So now I’m never starting new friendships ever again and my amount of friends will only ever decrease until it’s zero! Muahahahahaha
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AvPD culture is I can't face people alone, but all I've ever been is alone.
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avpd culture is madotsuki from yume nikki
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avpd + adhd is being notoriously bad at texting and a chronic ghoster because you either
A. panic terribly over a random unimportant text and don't respond for hours
B. Forget
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