FP thoughts
I don’t know how to breathe without you.
I hate that this is how my head works.
You validate me and for a minute things feel okay.
But, the minute you disappear, I can’t function. I can’t eat. I can’t move.
I wish things were easier.
I want control back.
I want to be able to prioritise myself and look after myself without you.
I want to be able to do what you do without it feeling this painful.
I have this bad habit of being able to compartmentalise no matter what I may be going through. It means that when you’re not okay I will be there for you even if I feel like shit.
But you don’t do the same for me. And I know I should be able to understand that everyone works differently and just because I can drop everything for someone else, they may not do the same for me.
But, I just want someone who will. I just want someone who will drop everything for me and prioritise me and be there for me and hold me through these dark times.
The darkness is getting darker. I’m not sure I can hold on much longer.
Please don’t leave me.



















