it's always "support mental health", "support those with disorders", etc. until it doesn't fit your standard of what mental illness should look like. until my disorder is more than some romanticized TikTok trend
you say you support people with autism, but only if its the "oh man I'm so weird & acoustic ! ! silly car XD" bs. when I behave 'erratically' in attempts to mask, when I say things that aren't appropriate to conversation, when my vocal stims aren't the latest tiktok audios, or when my physical stims end up harming me, then there's something wrong with me, I'm a freak.
you say you support people with bpd until I struggle with knowing who I am, until I behave with the intent of being self-destructive, until you see me splitting, until I age regress, until my impulsivity hurts myself & those around me, until I act 'crazy' because I'm scared you'll leave.
you support people with bipolar until its more than just mood swings, until you see what a manic episode is really like, until I've been too depressed to get out of bed for weeks, until my room is covered in rotting food and trash because I've been to depressed to take care of it, until you're around someone experiencing dysphoric mania or psychotic mania, until you see someone who isn't medicated.
you support those who have dpdr until it doesn't fit your idea of what a dissociative disorder is, until I can't remember important things you've told me, until I can't remember what I did and didn't say, until I'm so disconnected that I can hardly speak or move, until I'm 'no fun', until I feel like I'm watching my body move from the passenger seat.
you support people with anxiety until it isn't situational, until I'm constantly worrying, until I have trouble focusing because all I can think about is the 'what if', until I'm always sick to my stomach because of it, until I cancel our plans last minute, until I leave early, until I push people away because simply having friends adds to it all.
you support people with ptsd until its manifests as severe disassociation, until I won't stay overnight due to the nightmares, until I can't listen to certain songs, until I'm so paranoid that I isolate myself from the world, until I'm 'not the same' after a flashback, until I'm aggressive and volatile towards you because something you did is too familiar.
you support mental health until its not up to standard not romanticized not what you're used to until it's uncomfortable until it's loud until it's scary until it hurts you until it's real.
